Going To Try It Again: This Time Whole-Hearted

Well I obviously didn't last.
Probably for the most part because my diet buddy couldn't last. And then there was the stress of moving to a new apartment. And putting up with all the bullshit in the new place. And Him, who effing drives me insane and I don't know why I'm still with...mostly because I don't feel like getting a job, I like being a mom.
So I'm going to try again. I can't decide whether to do a short round or a long round though.
I have enough for a long round but I don't know if I'm up for the challenge.

Of course I have two weeks to decide.
I'm thinking of starting on the day before my son's birthday party so I can have cake and other stuff with everyone else, and call it loading.
Of course cake will be about the only sugary thing I have. I'm not big on sugar and I need to focus on good fats for loading....
Like cheeeeeeese. o_O <-- Googly eyes =D

So there it all is.
I need motivation.
I need a motive in the first place.

I really need to punch Him in the face for hogging my side of the bed, which I am on the edge of.

Then after I'm done losing weight I'm going to find a good man.
A real man, not a wussy little boy excuse for one.

I should have stuck with cowboys and Marines.
*sigh*

Did I mention I'm also PMSing?

VLCD4 (-1.5lbs)

Well today I was awakened with cheeseits so I had a couple (my baby brought cheeseits to my bed and left them there when he woke me up).
Drank water and tea all day.
Had shrimp and beansprouts (I know its not on the list it was the only veggie option where I went aparently)) for a very late lunch (like 6 o'clock).
Came home and had a little chicken and an orange.
(Also snuck some rice crackers, shame on me lol.)

So we'll see if I stall or gain after my variated diet today.
I was still under 500 cals so hopefully the food doesn't bother my body or the hCG.

Yesterday...what did I have...hm...*thinking*
For lunch I had a hamburger patty with mustard and asparagus with a strawberry balsamic reduction and strawberries.
Ate dinner around 8:30pm, was at the mall so we had the Japanese food they have and I had shrimp and cabbage. Luckily this place uses water instead of oil and very light seasoning. (Also stole a couple piece of brocolli when hubby wasn't looking, ooh I'm such a rogue!) So for the most part protocol friendly yesterday.
Lost 1.5lbs

I'm looking into making "Cocoa Crack" or "Cocoa Mug Cake" which are rogue-ish, but from what I've read, hasn't deterred anyone's progress. (Most likely eaten in moderatation)
People do a lot of variating to make this diet more user-friendly, for the most part I will stick to Dr. S' stuff, but sometimes a person gets cravings right?
I'm not a crazy adventurer though.
Some doctors came up with an 800 calorie version and after losing nothing on VCLD3, I'm afraid of even going 20 cals over lol.

Well there's my update. Don't shoot me for cheating a few times, I know there are hCG Nazis out there waiting to pounce.


[b]I am now at 261.5lbs, that is down from my pre-hCG weight of 264.5 and loading weight of 266.5.
It's also down from my February 7th 2011 weight of 272lbs, so in the past two weeks I have lost 10.5lbs! YAY!!!
5 (or 4.5) of those are from the hCG diet in the past 4 days![/b]

VLCD2

Well today went better than yesterday. I wasn't as hungry and I spaced my food out more (by not eating breakfast par protocol) and I made it the whole day without feeling hungry until 6pm when I had dinner.

I lost 4lbs when I woke up this morning.
I can't wait to see how I do tomorrow morning.
We'll see how the weekend goes as well. I hope with Omar around all day I'll be able to stick to the diet. He eats basically everything he can so I'll have to really resist temptation.

We're looking at an apartment tomorrow, so I'll have to remember to go to the bathroom right before we leave. With all this water I pee at twice the normal rate at least!

Today I ate just about exactly 500cal. So I'm doing much better with the hunger because of that.
Yesterday I only had 357! I didn't eat my full ration of meat.

I'm hoping for a big loss in the morning. Fingers crossed!

Down 3.5lbs!!

Well yesterday was VLCD1, sorry I didn't write anything, I was being lazy most of the day, and then when Omar got home I got a horrible headache. I'll have to start paying attention to when I get my headaches, I'm starting to think it's just him.

Today is VLCD2 and as of this morning I am DOWN 3.5lbs!
I gained 2lbs during loading so I lost that plus 1.5lbs!
I'm excited. (Mostly because I cheated with a tiny bite of lasagna sauce and cheese from hubby's dinner) lol I thought with that one bite I would be sentenced to rot in Fat Hell forever!
But now I have to think about if I didn't take that bite how much would I have lost? Hmmmm? Yes so it's no good to cheat, people!

Yesterday was harder than I thought it would be, but I made it. I actually probably got away with the pasta sauce because I didn't eat all my meat ration.
Here's what I ate:
Apple
Orange
Grissini(2)
140g steak
Asparagus
Radishes

Idk how many calories that comes out to, around 400 I think. No wonder I was hungry. I could have eaten more lol.
Better safe than sorry.
I also drank like 10 cups of tea and got the wrong sweetener so I used Truvia and not Stevia. I thought that alone would make me gain, honestly.

I found out the only really hard thing is not eating everything I give my son to eat lol. He had like 4 oranges, 4 crackers, 1 mini lunchable, 2 half peanutbutter sandwiches, lemonade (with reg sugar since I got the wrong one), 3 grissini, 2 chicken strips....I think that's all. Usually I would eat about half of that because he has a tendency to eat half and walk off lol. Yesterday he ate it all.

I asked Omar to buy me crab but he forgot =(
At least he remembered the strawberries and apples.


Well, I will update tonight, if I remember to.
TTFN. Ta ta for now

Loading Day #2

So today I took a little less of a dose.
And injecting hurt more than yesterday, I think I did it more at a 90 degree angle this time though...I'll have to experiement with that. Still, it didn't hurt enough to bother me or say it was any sort of pain. More of a pinch. It could be that I didn't let the alcohol from the wipe dry enough too.

Anyways I took a smaller dose to see if it would make me more hungry for my last loading day.
Nope. Still not hungry!
Had to force myself to eat all day.
So far the only thing I can eat a good amount of is Strawberries, which I need to buy more of because I just ran out. Problem is I got them at a great price and I'm almost completely sure they're going to be back to $4/lb. I got them for $1.77! I was amazed honestly.

Tomorrow I start the VCLD or the "insane 500 calorie diet" as some people have called it.
Freaking Twitter people need to stop tweeting and start reading! This is honestly the most healthy "diet" I've ever heard of. And I'm about to find out that it tastes a hell of a lot better too! Homemade food always tastes better than diet food. No matter how healthy it is.

I don't think I'll have any problem only eating 500kcal for the day. My normal amount is around 1100-1200cals a day anyways. And the hCG really takes away your appetite. Well technically its not taking your appetite, it's just eating body fat instead of stuff you shove in your face. Which I am all for!

I'm so excited to start seeing the pounds drop!

Impossible to Load!

Either I'm really not hungry today, or the hCG REALLY REALLY curbs my appitite!
I'm supposed to be stuffing my face for 2 days, but I can barely eat more than I normally do in a day, which sucks when you're supposed to be eating a buttload of fatty foods!

Omar and I went to look at diamond rings today (there's one on sale at Fred Meyers I was going to get) and there ended up being 2 on sale, same carat weight and same price! Such a dilemma! I like them both. Awesome Valentines though right?
Omar had originally bought me a necklace, but the chain was too small and he majorly overpaid for it so I made him take it back. I told him to pick which ring to get, but he feels like I'll just make him take it back. How can he go wrong with two rings that I picked myself.
I halfway don't want to get a ring because when I lose weight my fingers will get smaller too.
I don't think I'll get it (the ring) because I only have so much money and I want to save it (we were going to go halfsies). But, we'll see.

I wonder what the scale will say in the morning.
Probably not a lot. I suck at this loading thing.
I think I'm going to lower my dose tomorrow and see if that lets me eat more.

I don't really understand the loading thing anyways. I think I have a perfectly good amount of fat already!

Loading Day #1

So yesterday I got the HCG I ordered online. I thought it would take weeks and weeks, but nope, 3 days and they were here. So I'm ready for my short round (23 day) right now, and then in April I'll start a long (43 day) round.

Today I mixed my HCG and took my first subcutaneous injection in my belly fat.
I was super nervous and skiddish about poking myself when it finally came time, but even slow and drawn out, THERE WAS NO PAIN! Maybe a little prick, but it didn't hurt at all!

So far I've just had strawberries and macaroni and cheese, but later I'll have some pizza and a In 'N Out cheeseburger.
I'm not normally hungry anyways, but I think the hCG is already curbing my appetite. It might just be a mental thing though we'll find out once I hit the VLC (very low calorie) days.

I can't wait for loading to be over and to start seeing the scale drop!

BTW - for some reason I've lost 4.5lbs since Sunday? And that's me normally eating and sitting on my butt over the weekend.
Maybe the mindset has kicked in already?
Lol IDK! But, I hope I lose more than 15lbs in these next 23 days!
It would be awesome to get to 250 or less by the time we go to Las Vegas!