If my losses aren't so good from here on out I'm going to have to do a mini-load day and see if that will kick start losses, taking my HCG all week and eating whatever could have effed up my losses. But I won't know until I do a few POP/MOP days, I can't really count the FAGE & SUSHI DAY, because dairy tends to make me gain and I'm taking the 1lb loss as a fluke lol.
So I'm having my Chicken Strawberry Salads (2) today and we'll see how my losses are in the morning.
I hope I get enough water in, because I haven't been, so it's possible I would have lost more weight this morning if I had gotten even a quarter of the water I'm supposed to drink (120oz/day).
So we'll see how it goes.
I'm so sick of losing old weight, I've really got to stop sabotaging myself, and just stick to protocol and get rid of this weight.
I think one of my saboteur problems right now is skin. And looking gross after I lose weight.
I don't want to have to get a tummy-tuck to look even decent. My friend Catherine said I won't have to worry about it because I wasn't FAT - Round, but then I'm worried about needing a body lift due to extra skin on my legs! All I want is to be instantly bikini-ready next summer!!! OH and to fit with a friend in a Samlor:
When I go to Thailand next year, I want to be to GOAL!!!!! And I know it's possible because other people who started HCG around the same time that I did have already lost 70-80lbs.
And then there's my MEASLY 30lbs!!!
I feel constantly like a failure when I compare myself to others....Except to my friend Jo who is either at or above where she started, for lack of willpower and then she had some health issues, and she's always travelling for work.... She only has like 30lbs to lose! So I wish she gets her stuff together and gets down to SPINE SKINNY! Yes yes. I ALSO HOPE I GET MY STUFF TOGETHER AND GET SPINE SKINNY AS WELL!
So that's where it is, I'm afraid of getting skinny because I'm afraid of having all kinds of nasty skin flaps and shit. Which I really shouldn't be worrying about because I'm not ROUND FAT, I'm just BIG ALL OVER, sort of fat.... What I am not looking forward to is seeing what I should have seen after my son was born - Stretch marks and loose skin on my belly left over from my pregnancy.
But the plan is to tighten up my skin and work my ass off to tighten up my muscles in the process.
I have a feeling sea salt lotion, cocoa butter, and collagen are going to be even better friends in the future than they are now.
And I have to remember that it takes a year for your skin to completely shrink all it's going to after weight loss. I'm hoping that by then I'll be tight and firm and gorgeous all over =] And have a super bikini bod!
If anything I at least hope my "man-legs" go away so I can look super hot in a mini skirt/dress.
And I hope I don't get saggy skin around my legs/butt. THAT WOULD SUCK!!!!
Watch me gain all my weight back just to fill in my skin again lol.
NO NO NO NO
I can't think like that!!!!
I'm going to get fucking skeleton skinny, then fill out a little until I figure out where I like to be - spine skinny, and hopefully fit into normal people sizes!
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