My first attempt at a youtube video!!

Asking people if they want me to do eyeshadow/makeup tutorials lol.

Sorry it sucks.

What I Ate 8/15/11

SOOOOO
Instead of making meatloaf, I made hubby a hamburger and I had 3 hard boiled eggs.

Here's what I ate today:
4oz Lean, thin, low/no fat sirloin steak w/ 1 tbs of mayo
1 SF Hunt's Snack Pack Gello cup
1 Diet Rite Pure Zero Cola
3 Large Hard Boiled Eggs (with yolks)

Grand total: 490 calories!!!!

So I'm done for the day and I have to say, I'm really NOT hungry, just the normal mental cravings...like cookies... LOL

Can't really think of anything else to talk about so I'm going to end this earlier than I normally would. If I think about something later on, I'll update.

MORNING ALL!

Down another pound this morning from my Gyro day last night =] That's encouraging.
Going all POP today and see if I can't kick it into overdrive. Hamburgers for lunch and dinner today....I might just have steak for lunch and make meatloaf for family dinner, but I don't really feel like cooking so much. I might just use some of the hamburger and make hubby Thai beef and rice.

I can't think of anything else to say, I'm soo tired. I went to sleep around 4am, and had to wake up at 10 or 10.30 this morning.

I decided to take my Apidexin this morning, mostly just to wake up, but it could boost my losses tomorrow. I doubt it, but it could happen lol. If anything the HCG will burn fat and the Apidexin will build muscle.

I'll update later on, tonight.

UPDATE 8/14/11

So the whole salad thing didn't work out. It was spinach, I HATE SPINACH, and FYI: strawberries and chicken do NOT go together!!!
So I had a protein shake for lunch.
And for dinner I had a Gyro, which I will be doing a food blog on after I'm done writing this. http://www.rillyshrinkingfoodie.blogspot.com/

So I'm roughly at 779 cals for the day.
I might have a couple of bite of my son's pretzel later on though.

Strawberry Chicken Salad Day!

So I thought I was down 3#, but I'm actually only down 1#. So that kind of bites, but it's still a loss and losses are good!
If my losses aren't so good from here on out I'm going to have to do a mini-load day and see if that will kick start losses, taking my HCG all week and eating whatever could have effed up my losses. But I won't know until I do a few POP/MOP days, I can't really count the FAGE & SUSHI DAY, because dairy tends to make me gain and I'm taking the 1lb loss as a fluke lol.

So I'm having my Chicken Strawberry Salads (2) today and we'll see how my losses are in the morning.
I hope I get enough water in, because I haven't been, so it's possible I would have lost more weight this morning if I had gotten even a quarter of the water I'm supposed to drink (120oz/day).
So we'll see how it goes.
I'm so sick of losing old weight, I've really got to stop sabotaging myself, and just stick to protocol and get rid of this weight.

I think one of my saboteur problems right now is skin. And looking gross after I lose weight.
I don't want to have to get a tummy-tuck to look even decent. My friend Catherine said I won't have to worry about it because I wasn't FAT - Round, but then I'm worried about needing a body lift due to extra skin on my legs! All I want is to be instantly bikini-ready next summer!!! OH and to fit with a friend in a Samlor:

When I go to Thailand next year, I want to be to GOAL!!!!! And I know it's possible because other people who started HCG around the same time that I did have already lost 70-80lbs.

And then there's my MEASLY 30lbs!!!

I feel constantly like a failure when I compare myself to others....Except to my friend Jo who is either at or above where she started, for lack of willpower and then she had some health issues, and she's always travelling for work.... She only has like 30lbs to lose! So I wish she gets her stuff together and gets down to SPINE SKINNY! Yes yes. I ALSO HOPE I GET MY STUFF TOGETHER AND GET SPINE SKINNY AS WELL!

So that's where it is, I'm afraid of getting skinny because I'm afraid of having all kinds of nasty skin flaps and shit. Which I really shouldn't be worrying about because I'm not ROUND FAT, I'm just BIG ALL OVER, sort of fat.... What I am not looking forward to is seeing what I should have seen after my son was born - Stretch marks and loose skin on my belly left over from my pregnancy.

But the plan is to tighten up my skin and work my ass off to tighten up my muscles in the process.

I have a feeling sea salt lotion, cocoa butter, and collagen are going to be even better friends in the future than they are now.

And I have to remember that it takes a year for your skin to completely shrink all it's going to after weight loss. I'm hoping that by then I'll be tight and firm and gorgeous all over =] And have a super bikini bod!

If anything I at least hope my "man-legs" go away so I can look super hot in a mini skirt/dress.

And I hope I don't get saggy skin around my legs/butt. THAT WOULD SUCK!!!!

Watch me gain all my weight back just to fill in my skin again lol.

NO NO NO NO

I can't think like that!!!!

I'm going to get fucking skeleton skinny, then fill out a little until I figure out where I like to be - spine skinny, and hopefully fit into normal people sizes!

What I Ate - 8/13/11

17.5oz Fage Total
1 Large Peach

Roughly 1145cals


7 pieces of sushi and a bowl of miso soup.
Roughly 373cals

(we try to go out or order in once a week as a family date night)

Rough Estimate of today's caloric intake: 1514cals; 55% Fat, 22% Carbs, and 23% Protein - That's about a fat fast day right? I'll just call it my FAGE SUSHI DAY! - If it drops me any weight =P

Not really worried about it, I have those salads I was going to eat today, but had to get rid of the Fage.
So tomorrow is Chicken and Strawberry Salad Day! (Sounds totally gross right? - We'll find out!)

It's almost 4am so I'm going to bed lol.

Dun-Dun-Dunnnnnn =]

Soooooo I'm only up 4.5lbs!!!
Which I Think is AWESOME!!!! For all the stuff I ate while at my dad's.
Hubby saved me some "Strawberry Chicken Salad" I'm going to try today, it looks really creepy, but I'll try it, and yes its a salad with strawberries and a little thingy of chicken salad - with MAYO, I don't think the little bit of fat will hurt though, it's REAALLLLY tiny. So we'll find out, and I might add in some protein by having a strawberry shake for my drink with my salad (make the strawberries in the salad less noticeable - I HOPE - I'm not big on fruit being in my salad).

WOOPS: UPDATE - OK, I TOTALLY FORGOT! - I'm doing a Fage-day today, because I have about 6 of those little full fat Fage cups (bought on sale $1/ea =] ) that I put in one big container and I need to eat it before it goes bad.
So this will be an interesting day, I HATE FAGE - IT'S GROSS - LIKE EATING CREAM CHEESE.

OH YEAH - If you read my blog, don't forget to FOLLOW IT! =] Thanks.

In other news, last night I opened my present from my friend Catthai!!!

This was sooooo EXCITING for me =]

It's supposed to remind me of my plans and what I want to do:

(learn Thai, Visit Thailand, Get degree, teach in Asia, etc etc etc...)

So, everytime I look up I see it and I'm reminded to get things done!!

She also sent me stevia because it gives her headaches and I've never used it before!

(I always use Truvia, Saccharin, or PureVia)



I'm finding it hard to be patient about waiting for my Skin79 BB Cream lol. Oh well I can hold out for 2 more weeks, right? One more reason I hate buying things online lol, I have to wait for them to arrive!!

Ok off to inject my hCG, loving my new tiny needles!

The one on the left (bigger and longer) is what I normally use,

The one on the left (TINY) is what my friend gave me.

Normal: 100cc, 28ga, .5" - Prick and a little sting if you don't poke it in perfectly

New: 50cc, 31ga, .25" - CAN'T FEEL IT AT ALL!!! No discomfort!

These small ones probably wont work for you people who inject A LOT of liquid

(I only inject at .15-.17 for 150-175iu - anything more to me is creepy)

Ok NOW I'M GOING!!!

Have a great day, I'll update later with my intake and feelings for the day =]