So I thought I should update for today, I am 10lbs over my LIW of 235.5, I thoguht it was 7 but I think that was yesterday. I don't even want to think about what tomorrow's weight will be like but it's whatever, holidays are finally over (besides New Years), and this week I'm going to be working on (eating everything in the house) cleaning out the cupboards full of carbs and starting anew for the new year!
Today I had prime rib, mashed potatoes and gravy, mac and cheese, choco-chip cookies, cake, fudge, and .... i don't know. I didn't eat alot altogether but I'm sure it will add up especially since I had some soda and for some reason soda has been making me gain the most over this past week.
Anywys I wanted to take a minute and wish the world a Merry Christmas! Hope you all had a great holiday and enjoy the rest of the week.
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12/25/11
12/24/11
12/23/11
2012 GOALS
2012 Rounds:
(End of these months)
1 - January: 210lbs2 - February: 195lbs
(March is P3 and ending with P2)
3 - April: 165lbs
(May is P2 all the way through - 43 day round)
4 - June: 135lbs July: 130lbs at end of P3 - Beginning P4 - Life Maintenance
So this doesn't get me completely to goal, but hopefully I'll be happy in the 130s, if not I can always change my mind and do one last round before maintaining.
This is just a rough estimate of my goals for this year, but I feel that having it written down will make me stick to the plan better.
Count Down: 8 days until my next round!
I just thought I would stop in and say HIIIIII =]
Also, I wanted to remind people that I am 22 years old and therefore I'm allowed to have a super low goal weight! (114.5-120; though I would be happy with 110 so I have sort of a weight-gain buffer.) I tend to get a few people who are "worried" about my goal weight, but honestly it's a healthy goal, about a size 0-5 with my body, but who knows: Maybe I'll be happy with myself before I get to those "goal" numbers!
I am very happy to have my "Alternative" friends with whom I have a completely supportive relationship no matter how fat or tiny we want to be in the end, or the reasons we're trying to get there. We may not always agree, but we're always supportive, some of you people out there making judgments need to take other peoples' views into consideration. I might give you shit, but I never judge.
So, in 8 days I start my new, NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTION CHALLENGE!
(which I still have to start writing up the spreadsheet for...)
I'm hoping to finally get out of the 200s by the end of February, which is a goal I know my awesome friends are going to help me achieve. I should have technically been done for good by NOW, but for the past almost 6 months I've just been fucking around and staying around the same weight, yeah I've lost about 15lbs since June, but I should have been able to at least lose 100lbs ( 15lbs/month). So I'm kind of kicking myself right now and thinking of myself as a failure, I know I need to get my head out of that kind of thinking though.
So I should probably write up a goal sheet for 2012 and I will get to that in another post after I publish this one. I'm hoping to be at GOAL GOAL by the time the girls and I leave for Las Vegas in July for our HCG girls "bachelorette" party haha. I don't want to feel like a failure anymore, I want to get this weight off and find something else to obsess over that isn't so depressing.
Also, I wanted to remind people that I am 22 years old and therefore I'm allowed to have a super low goal weight! (114.5-120; though I would be happy with 110 so I have sort of a weight-gain buffer.) I tend to get a few people who are "worried" about my goal weight, but honestly it's a healthy goal, about a size 0-5 with my body, but who knows: Maybe I'll be happy with myself before I get to those "goal" numbers!
I am very happy to have my "Alternative" friends with whom I have a completely supportive relationship no matter how fat or tiny we want to be in the end, or the reasons we're trying to get there. We may not always agree, but we're always supportive, some of you people out there making judgments need to take other peoples' views into consideration. I might give you shit, but I never judge.
So, in 8 days I start my new, NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTION CHALLENGE!
(which I still have to start writing up the spreadsheet for...)
I'm hoping to finally get out of the 200s by the end of February, which is a goal I know my awesome friends are going to help me achieve. I should have technically been done for good by NOW, but for the past almost 6 months I've just been fucking around and staying around the same weight, yeah I've lost about 15lbs since June, but I should have been able to at least lose 100lbs ( 15lbs/month). So I'm kind of kicking myself right now and thinking of myself as a failure, I know I need to get my head out of that kind of thinking though.
So I should probably write up a goal sheet for 2012 and I will get to that in another post after I publish this one. I'm hoping to be at GOAL GOAL by the time the girls and I leave for Las Vegas in July for our HCG girls "bachelorette" party haha. I don't want to feel like a failure anymore, I want to get this weight off and find something else to obsess over that isn't so depressing.
12/22/11
Christmas - FAIL - Waiting for New Years!
So a round before Xmas was apparently not the best idea, actually I've learned a very good lesson just in case I'm still dieting towards Halloween next year 2012, DO NOT DIET AROUND HALLOWEEN OR AFTER!!! lmao.
I seem to be stabilized around 238 so that's fine except that I'm 9lbs above my lowest weight from the Halloween Challenge.. Ok technically over that even since I did get down to 225.5, but we'll stick with the 229.5 lol since it makes me feel better about my gain.
We are starting a New Years Challenge Dec 30-Jan 1(load days) for 21+ days, so I'm going to completely clean out the house and make this round count and get fucking skinny like I should already be right now instead of still being a fatass. If I didn't fuck around and be so naughty I could have made goal already and be wearing those fucking size 5 skinny jeans I have hanging on my bedroom wall that hubby's neice gave me.
Oh well. I still have until July (when the girls and I are going to Las Vegas together) to get spine skinny and ready for bikinis and daquiris, so hopefully I'll stop fucking around this year.
This will be my first time ever making a New Year's Resolution, let alone a NYR for DIETING! I'm not really a resolution sort of person, but it's time for a fucking change and I love the confidence I gain as I look healthier and less....StayPuft. Lol.
I'm going to be looking at more thinspiration like I used to, hoping this will keep me on task since I used to do alot better when I was actively looking at and posting thinspo.
I'm also going to try to keep up with updates on here and also with video updates on YouTube.
Wish me luck, and I hope you all have a not so naughty Christmas, and a skinny fucking New Year!!!
I seem to be stabilized around 238 so that's fine except that I'm 9lbs above my lowest weight from the Halloween Challenge.. Ok technically over that even since I did get down to 225.5, but we'll stick with the 229.5 lol since it makes me feel better about my gain.
We are starting a New Years Challenge Dec 30-Jan 1(load days) for 21+ days, so I'm going to completely clean out the house and make this round count and get fucking skinny like I should already be right now instead of still being a fatass. If I didn't fuck around and be so naughty I could have made goal already and be wearing those fucking size 5 skinny jeans I have hanging on my bedroom wall that hubby's neice gave me.
Oh well. I still have until July (when the girls and I are going to Las Vegas together) to get spine skinny and ready for bikinis and daquiris, so hopefully I'll stop fucking around this year.
This will be my first time ever making a New Year's Resolution, let alone a NYR for DIETING! I'm not really a resolution sort of person, but it's time for a fucking change and I love the confidence I gain as I look healthier and less....StayPuft. Lol.
I'm going to be looking at more thinspiration like I used to, hoping this will keep me on task since I used to do alot better when I was actively looking at and posting thinspo.
I'm also going to try to keep up with updates on here and also with video updates on YouTube.
Wish me luck, and I hope you all have a not so naughty Christmas, and a skinny fucking New Year!!!
11/30/11
Christmas Round VLCD 4
Mixing a new vial tonight since the one I've been using is finally empty (I mixed it a few weeks ago and ended up deciding I wasn't ready for P2 so I froze it.... twice... ).
Anyways, I'm thinking the vial I've been using is dead from being frozen and thawed excessively, and hoping that I'll stop having this craving/hunger thing and start losing better, meaning I want WEIGHT not INCHES.
For the Halloween round it went hella slow like this one is doing, but I lost almost 8" one week and ten pounds the next week, which was awesome yeah, I fit back into my pre-preg pants I haven't warn in 3 years, I'm wearing L-XL dresses and leggings, and ALMOST fit into a size 17 in juniors' jeans. But I really want to get out of the 200s!!!
My weight as of today is 237, and I did have bites of carbs here and there today, but I'm hoping not enough to make me gain. I am down from my load weight of 242.5 so that good at least and it's only my 3rd loss day.
My LIW from my P3 was 235 and also what I stabilized at (was basically a P4).
Would like to have done better in my last round and better in that first P3 I did after the Halloween round, but I did gain about 10# (238), then lost 3 and stabilized in this last half at 235.
I'm really trying to push for working this round. Hubby is giving me great support and yelling at me when I even think about cheating, so that's good, my past rounds have been a laugh because he wasn't supportive at all and I cheated alot.
Also, I've been eating mainly beef, which could be the reason my losses are sucking so badly. I need to pick up some chicken and ground turkey, last round when I made turkey goulash I dropped 4# instantly and I was basically nursing on that all day, probably about .5lb of ground turkey meat with chilis, bell peppers, onions, tomatoes/sauce, even a few noodles here and there. And it wasn't a fluke because the next couple of days I lost 3# each (that was the 10# I lost in the Halloween round). And mixing veggies doesn't work for me, normally it makes me gain.
So there's my update. Also, I've been checking out some more thinspiration because that seems to keep me in check, I'm thinking the dieting will be easier in a couple of weeks when my classes are finished for the winter, Chinese is done next week (Dec 8) and my other classes are done the week after. (Dec 12-16)
Anyways, I'm thinking the vial I've been using is dead from being frozen and thawed excessively, and hoping that I'll stop having this craving/hunger thing and start losing better, meaning I want WEIGHT not INCHES.
For the Halloween round it went hella slow like this one is doing, but I lost almost 8" one week and ten pounds the next week, which was awesome yeah, I fit back into my pre-preg pants I haven't warn in 3 years, I'm wearing L-XL dresses and leggings, and ALMOST fit into a size 17 in juniors' jeans. But I really want to get out of the 200s!!!
My weight as of today is 237, and I did have bites of carbs here and there today, but I'm hoping not enough to make me gain. I am down from my load weight of 242.5 so that good at least and it's only my 3rd loss day.
My LIW from my P3 was 235 and also what I stabilized at (was basically a P4).
Would like to have done better in my last round and better in that first P3 I did after the Halloween round, but I did gain about 10# (238), then lost 3 and stabilized in this last half at 235.
I'm really trying to push for working this round. Hubby is giving me great support and yelling at me when I even think about cheating, so that's good, my past rounds have been a laugh because he wasn't supportive at all and I cheated alot.
Also, I've been eating mainly beef, which could be the reason my losses are sucking so badly. I need to pick up some chicken and ground turkey, last round when I made turkey goulash I dropped 4# instantly and I was basically nursing on that all day, probably about .5lb of ground turkey meat with chilis, bell peppers, onions, tomatoes/sauce, even a few noodles here and there. And it wasn't a fluke because the next couple of days I lost 3# each (that was the 10# I lost in the Halloween round). And mixing veggies doesn't work for me, normally it makes me gain.
So there's my update. Also, I've been checking out some more thinspiration because that seems to keep me in check, I'm thinking the dieting will be easier in a couple of weeks when my classes are finished for the winter, Chinese is done next week (Dec 8) and my other classes are done the week after. (Dec 12-16)
11/11/11
Off the wagon and in the gains lol
Not big gains mind you - I hover around 233 most of the time, but I can't seem to stop myself from cheating. Caused by letting myself really cheat a few times and getting re-addicted to food. ... mainly Carbs. CARBSSSS those devilish things. >.>
So yes I'm still on the juice and not eating a lot to cause real gains (minus last night because I ate a lot of Chinese pastries, giving me a 1.5 gain that might be gone tomorrow, depending if I keep eating crap today..)
I can't decide whether to just be in P3 or to keep trying to get myself back into P2 mode (NO CHEATINNNGGGG)
these past couple of seeks have been MEGGA hard because we've been MEGGGAAAA BROKE. So I've had to buy crap and eat crap because CRAP is all we've been able to afford. And seems to be all we're going to be able to afford or a while. I think I should buy a shit-ton of full fat Fage and live off of that because it loves me and really keeps you full. Downside - EXPENSIVE AS FUCKKKK!
Also need to get back into looking at lots of thinspo, I seem to notice when I'm not actively looking at inspiration I fall off into my fat-people ways and eat shit. =/ Doesn't help either that hubby has been bringing home crap or wanting me to cook crap food. I think I should just go back to beef and broccoli every night hahaha, but then he'd want rice or noodles.... Again with the carbohydrates!!!
Halloween didn't help either because of trick-or-treating and sugar sugar sugar candy candy candy. BUT, I did NOT make yummies this year (cookies, Rice Krispy Treats, etc). So I'm kind of proud of that. =] But I DID raid my son's candy bag for "the good stuff". (Hershey's and Reeses) which I'm not proud of.
Also have not been paying enough attention to my studies at all. Which I'm actually supposed to be doing as I type right now because I haven't read my chapters and I have an exam TODAY that I have to finish before leaving for my dads in 6 hours. Crap.
So there's my update.
So yes I'm still on the juice and not eating a lot to cause real gains (minus last night because I ate a lot of Chinese pastries, giving me a 1.5 gain that might be gone tomorrow, depending if I keep eating crap today..)
I can't decide whether to just be in P3 or to keep trying to get myself back into P2 mode (NO CHEATINNNGGGG)
these past couple of seeks have been MEGGA hard because we've been MEGGGAAAA BROKE. So I've had to buy crap and eat crap because CRAP is all we've been able to afford. And seems to be all we're going to be able to afford or a while. I think I should buy a shit-ton of full fat Fage and live off of that because it loves me and really keeps you full. Downside - EXPENSIVE AS FUCKKKK!
Also need to get back into looking at lots of thinspo, I seem to notice when I'm not actively looking at inspiration I fall off into my fat-people ways and eat shit. =/ Doesn't help either that hubby has been bringing home crap or wanting me to cook crap food. I think I should just go back to beef and broccoli every night hahaha, but then he'd want rice or noodles.... Again with the carbohydrates!!!
Halloween didn't help either because of trick-or-treating and sugar sugar sugar candy candy candy. BUT, I did NOT make yummies this year (cookies, Rice Krispy Treats, etc). So I'm kind of proud of that. =] But I DID raid my son's candy bag for "the good stuff". (Hershey's and Reeses) which I'm not proud of.
Also have not been paying enough attention to my studies at all. Which I'm actually supposed to be doing as I type right now because I haven't read my chapters and I have an exam TODAY that I have to finish before leaving for my dads in 6 hours. Crap.
So there's my update.
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