I'm guessing I lost about .5lb because I forgot to weigh this morning and didn't gain with clothes on, so I'm guessing I lost at least .5, it's whatever, I had pizza and a vodka/diet coke last night so I feel like that was good.
Our air-conditioner is broken which is illegal! in the state of Arizona.
I halfway feel like calling the cops and forcing them to get it fucking fixed, but I'm not the call the cops kind of person, I'm lazy.
Here's what I ate today (I was out all day so I did the best I could):
McDonald's Bacon Ranch Salad - 230 cals
Subway Grilled chicken salad - About 130 cals
Half of a Subway White Chocolate Chip Macadamia Nut cookie - 110 cals
Oh and a few drinks of Minute Maid Light Pomegranate Lemonade - 5 cals
Total: 475 cals
Let's make it 515, It's hot and I'm going to have a Fudgsicle =]
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7/30/11
What I Ate 7/29/11
WAY TOO MUCH.
1570 cals
endofstory.
lol.
going to bed now, hoping for the best, not a loss but hopefully not a big gain. Maybe I'll be loading this weekend. Don't know for sure yet. As you should know by now, my mind is never made up until it happens. I will probably go MEGA P2 for the rest of the weekend and get into the 230s.
1570 cals
endofstory.
lol.
going to bed now, hoping for the best, not a loss but hopefully not a big gain. Maybe I'll be loading this weekend. Don't know for sure yet. As you should know by now, my mind is never made up until it happens. I will probably go MEGA P2 for the rest of the weekend and get into the 230s.
7/29/11
P2 VLCD2 -4#
Yes, that's right DOWN 4 POUNDS BEE-OTCHES!!! OVERNIGHT!
Booyah!
Feeling good.
I was mentally starving last night, but now I feel like I can rule the world. That's the one thing this diet is awesome because of, INSTANT RESULTS AND REWARDS FOR BEING GOOD! I only went over 500 cals by 10 cals, which is great for me.
I might skip the eggs this morning, it took me forever to eat the egg whites yesterday, and I almost gagged like 4 times, egg whites are gross unless they're made into a sandwich with toast.
I'll update later, I'm going to have an orange I've been up 2 hours without anything to eat.
Booyah!
Feeling good.
I was mentally starving last night, but now I feel like I can rule the world. That's the one thing this diet is awesome because of, INSTANT RESULTS AND REWARDS FOR BEING GOOD! I only went over 500 cals by 10 cals, which is great for me.
I might skip the eggs this morning, it took me forever to eat the egg whites yesterday, and I almost gagged like 4 times, egg whites are gross unless they're made into a sandwich with toast.
I'll update later, I'm going to have an orange I've been up 2 hours without anything to eat.
7/28/11
What I Ate 7/28/11
Breakfast:
3 egg whites and 1 egg yolk
1 small/medium orange
Lunch:
4 small meatballs
3/4 crown of broccoli
Dinner/Snacks:
2 Hunt's SF gello
1 SF Fudgcicle
1 small/medium orange
Total Calories: 515
I feel like I didn't get enough protein in today, so I'm going to see how the morning goes, and tomorrow I'm going to either up the meat intake or replace it with shakes, like I might have a coffe/protein shake for breakfast tomorrow instead of the eggs.
3 egg whites and 1 egg yolk
1 small/medium orange
Lunch:
4 small meatballs
3/4 crown of broccoli
Dinner/Snacks:
2 Hunt's SF gello
1 SF Fudgcicle
1 small/medium orange
Total Calories: 515
I feel like I didn't get enough protein in today, so I'm going to see how the morning goes, and tomorrow I'm going to either up the meat intake or replace it with shakes, like I might have a coffe/protein shake for breakfast tomorrow instead of the eggs.
P2
So I decided that I'm getting too fat again and jumped back into P2.
I just need to last on these pellets until I can get up to my dad's and get my HCG or until our shipment of HCG comes in down here. Then I'll be back on the real juice and get this weight off.
I would really like to get to at least 200# by the end of summer. I didn't make my 225 by July goal because I really got sick of dieting and needed a break, but BREAK IS OVER DAMNIT! SO I need to get my ass in gear and start getting this weight OFF!!!
I'm going to do a round until August 25th, go to P3 for 2 weeks and then MY CHALLENGE: The Skinnier By Halloween Challenge.
Skinnier By Halloween Challenge Timeframe:
LOADING - September 10th & 11th
VLCDs September 12th - October 5th
P3 - October 6th and through to Halloween
There are no protocol rules, do whatever you want with your HCG diet, this must be a NEW round, no using the challenge as an extension, and you have to update/post a scale picture everyday.
So, if I can make it to 200# by Halloween, not only will I be ECSTATIC, but I will actually buy either a skanky/girly Halloween costume, OR, I will buy clothes that can be made into a cute Halloween costume.
I usually just wear some raggy clothes and wear makeup and fake blood to look dead.
Also, I started a Food Blog: See Here, which is going to be put on a back burner, because as you know, you can't go out and EAT on HCG!!!! I'm going to try VERY HARD, to stick to 500 calories as close as possible....Which sometimes goes up to 650 depending on what I eat....But I'm going to try to stay as low as I can (closest to 500).
I just need to last on these pellets until I can get up to my dad's and get my HCG or until our shipment of HCG comes in down here. Then I'll be back on the real juice and get this weight off.
I would really like to get to at least 200# by the end of summer. I didn't make my 225 by July goal because I really got sick of dieting and needed a break, but BREAK IS OVER DAMNIT! SO I need to get my ass in gear and start getting this weight OFF!!!
I'm going to do a round until August 25th, go to P3 for 2 weeks and then MY CHALLENGE: The Skinnier By Halloween Challenge.
Skinnier By Halloween Challenge Timeframe:
LOADING - September 10th & 11th
VLCDs September 12th - October 5th
P3 - October 6th and through to Halloween
There are no protocol rules, do whatever you want with your HCG diet, this must be a NEW round, no using the challenge as an extension, and you have to update/post a scale picture everyday.
So, if I can make it to 200# by Halloween, not only will I be ECSTATIC, but I will actually buy either a skanky/girly Halloween costume, OR, I will buy clothes that can be made into a cute Halloween costume.
I usually just wear some raggy clothes and wear makeup and fake blood to look dead.
Also, I started a Food Blog: See Here, which is going to be put on a back burner, because as you know, you can't go out and EAT on HCG!!!! I'm going to try VERY HARD, to stick to 500 calories as close as possible....Which sometimes goes up to 650 depending on what I eat....But I'm going to try to stay as low as I can (closest to 500).
7/27/11
7/26/11
BLAAAHHHH - Another attempt at staying up all night.
Staying up all day did not work. Because I barely made it to...like .....9am? I took three Apidexin and I went to sleep, expecting to either wake up on my own form no being able to sleep, or get woken by my son (I slept in his room lol)
So now I'm up all night again!
It's 3.39am and in about 20 minutes, hubby will be awake asking me to make him breakfast.
My son has been sleeping off and on, I've just been letting him CIO (cry it out) in his room, trying to get him back into the habit of sleeping by himself, in his room, it doesn't work well when I'm awake because he sees the light under the door and wants to be out of his room, out here with me.
Just watched a great movie called Outsourced. It's sad but beautiful. I really want to go to India someday, I think it would be great, I wonder what type of a degree would be best to get to get a job that includes travel to suchs places.
Now I'm watching a Thai movie called Raging Phoenix, in Thai, no subtitles. =] I've been meaning to get back to my studies, but I still haven't, I'm probably going to have to recap all of what I've already learned. I'll at least go through all the lesson tests.
Have I mentioned how much I LOVE THAI. The language is amazing, and alot easier than people would lead you to believe. The characters are a little intimidating at first, but after you start learning the letters, it just comes easy. The hard thing is getting used to it so much that you can read it in different font styles. Lol.
http://www.womenlearnthai.com/ is run by my friend Catherine, and it' a great resource for anyone wanting to learn Thai or interested in Thai culture. She does ALOT ALOT ALOT of homework and works really hard on getting TONS of facts for all of her articles.
So now I'm up all night again!
It's 3.39am and in about 20 minutes, hubby will be awake asking me to make him breakfast.
My son has been sleeping off and on, I've just been letting him CIO (cry it out) in his room, trying to get him back into the habit of sleeping by himself, in his room, it doesn't work well when I'm awake because he sees the light under the door and wants to be out of his room, out here with me.
Just watched a great movie called Outsourced. It's sad but beautiful. I really want to go to India someday, I think it would be great, I wonder what type of a degree would be best to get to get a job that includes travel to suchs places.
Now I'm watching a Thai movie called Raging Phoenix, in Thai, no subtitles. =] I've been meaning to get back to my studies, but I still haven't, I'm probably going to have to recap all of what I've already learned. I'll at least go through all the lesson tests.
Have I mentioned how much I LOVE THAI. The language is amazing, and alot easier than people would lead you to believe. The characters are a little intimidating at first, but after you start learning the letters, it just comes easy. The hard thing is getting used to it so much that you can read it in different font styles. Lol.
http://www.womenlearnthai.com/ is run by my friend Catherine, and it' a great resource for anyone wanting to learn Thai or interested in Thai culture. She does ALOT ALOT ALOT of homework and works really hard on getting TONS of facts for all of her articles.
7/25/11
It's been a while.... (UPDATED)
And I've gained a few pounds but I'm not worried about it in the least.
I've been staying up too late, and in turn I have not been taking my Apidexin.
Sooooo, I'm thinking about starting P2 again tomorrow....But I really don't want to do the hhcg pellets again, I'm afraid of being hungry, and of my hair falling out again. I wouldn't be so worried if I did the Apidexin with the pellets, but I don't wake up early enough to take it! I could just take one and that might be ok....If I wake up early enough tomorrow, I'll try it and see how it goes.
I will be attempting to only having protein shakes with fruit, this doesn't work out so well with the hhcg though, I get hungry. So, with the 600-800 cal protocol in mind, I will have a 4oz steak for dinner if I get hungry towards the end of the day.
So I guess that's it, and I should be getting some HCG (Rx) before the end of the month, which will make it soooooooo much easier for me to stick with it. I LOVE INJECTIONS, and it's THE BEST WAY, the do HCG. I don't care what all the HHCG THUMPERS say, there is no susbstitute for the real thing.
Update!!!!
Decided to stay up all day today (ddn't get to sleep last night), so I'm going to hold off on starting P2 until another day, but I'm going to take 3 Apidexin with hopes that it will make me stay up until a normal bedtime. Then hopefully I'll get up at a normal time from now on so I can do the HHCG and Apidexin.
I'm thinking about doing Vlogs. My YouTube name is Queenrilly.
I don't know if doing it from my phone would work or not, it might with this new phone and then I could upload and edit from the computer..... I don't know. I guess it would be cool, but I feel like it would make me turn into every other idiot on the internet. And I would have to turn into one of those people who whore their YouTube accounts all over Facebook and Twitter.... I guess it's not much different as my blog though. I'd just have to write a script or something...
My voice totally sucks on video though...
Ok done thinking aloud, going to look at skinny people clothes online now, lol.
I've been staying up too late, and in turn I have not been taking my Apidexin.
Sooooo, I'm thinking about starting P2 again tomorrow....But I really don't want to do the hhcg pellets again, I'm afraid of being hungry, and of my hair falling out again. I wouldn't be so worried if I did the Apidexin with the pellets, but I don't wake up early enough to take it! I could just take one and that might be ok....If I wake up early enough tomorrow, I'll try it and see how it goes.
I will be attempting to only having protein shakes with fruit, this doesn't work out so well with the hhcg though, I get hungry. So, with the 600-800 cal protocol in mind, I will have a 4oz steak for dinner if I get hungry towards the end of the day.
So I guess that's it, and I should be getting some HCG (Rx) before the end of the month, which will make it soooooooo much easier for me to stick with it. I LOVE INJECTIONS, and it's THE BEST WAY, the do HCG. I don't care what all the HHCG THUMPERS say, there is no susbstitute for the real thing.
Update!!!!
Decided to stay up all day today (ddn't get to sleep last night), so I'm going to hold off on starting P2 until another day, but I'm going to take 3 Apidexin with hopes that it will make me stay up until a normal bedtime. Then hopefully I'll get up at a normal time from now on so I can do the HHCG and Apidexin.
I'm thinking about doing Vlogs. My YouTube name is Queenrilly.
I don't know if doing it from my phone would work or not, it might with this new phone and then I could upload and edit from the computer..... I don't know. I guess it would be cool, but I feel like it would make me turn into every other idiot on the internet. And I would have to turn into one of those people who whore their YouTube accounts all over Facebook and Twitter.... I guess it's not much different as my blog though. I'd just have to write a script or something...
My voice totally sucks on video though...
Ok done thinking aloud, going to look at skinny people clothes online now, lol.
7/19/11
Dun dun dun....(UPDATED)
Alright, so I didn't take my Apidexin yesterday, and I didn't go into P2, and I DID make Sticky Buns. Yummm. Which means, I ate WAYYY TOOOOO MANNNNYYYY. And gained 3.5# hehehehe.
So worth it, I make awesome sticky buns. It wouldn't have been so bad, but I use regular flour instead of almond or coconut.
I'm going to have to get some almond or coconut flour one of these days so I can try a steak and mug cake day.
So today I'm doing an egg and protein shake day to see if I can get my weight back down, if not I might end up back in P2. I really need a diet break though. So I'll do P3, finish off my HHCG after, do a short P3 and start on the RX HCG....or I could do P3 - Rx- p3 - Homeo.....
Well, I guess I'll decide once I get to that point. When I get bored of food again. =]
Ummmm..... Don't think I have anything else to write about.
I am starting to notice my legs getting smaller. Maybe they just seem smaller, I'll have to measure to find out, but it's encouraging.
UPDATE: 11.52pm
I don't think it was 3.5# gain actually, I think it was 2.5 and I counted wrong. Either way, a gain.
And I'm expecting another in the morning.
I did good with my eggs all day (4) and then I had a cup of mac & cheese, and for dinner, because we got home so late, I didn't feel like cooking and we got pizza.
So we'll see what tomorrow holds.
Have a good night!
So worth it, I make awesome sticky buns. It wouldn't have been so bad, but I use regular flour instead of almond or coconut.
I'm going to have to get some almond or coconut flour one of these days so I can try a steak and mug cake day.
So today I'm doing an egg and protein shake day to see if I can get my weight back down, if not I might end up back in P2. I really need a diet break though. So I'll do P3, finish off my HHCG after, do a short P3 and start on the RX HCG....or I could do P3 - Rx- p3 - Homeo.....
Well, I guess I'll decide once I get to that point. When I get bored of food again. =]
Ummmm..... Don't think I have anything else to write about.
I am starting to notice my legs getting smaller. Maybe they just seem smaller, I'll have to measure to find out, but it's encouraging.
UPDATE: 11.52pm
I don't think it was 3.5# gain actually, I think it was 2.5 and I counted wrong. Either way, a gain.
And I'm expecting another in the morning.
I did good with my eggs all day (4) and then I had a cup of mac & cheese, and for dinner, because we got home so late, I didn't feel like cooking and we got pizza.
So we'll see what tomorrow holds.
Have a good night!
7/18/11
Only gained 2# over weekend of bad foods!
If you haven't noticed yet, I got the computer back online =D
Well I didn't....but, the internet is working once again.
Today I'm doing a protein/protein shake day. I'll have my normal 2 shakes, and maybe a steak or chicken for dinner. That should give a great loss tomorrow. Possibly even into the 230s if I get lucky.
I meant to take my Apidexin today (because I'm planning on taking it my next bout of hhcg to finish off the bottle. I'll have to remember to take all my pills in the morning, it's too late today unless I feel like staying up until tomorrow,....which I don't.
I had a really weird comment on my last post that I had to delete because I couldn't understand what the hell it said.
Seriously people, learn to type in English.
Hmmmm, nothing else to talk about really.
LOVE MY SKINNY CHINESE TEA!!!!
If you're ever having plumbing problems (like we all do with a high protein diet), get some chinese skinny tea, it's like $3-$4, tastes great, and if you take it before bed (I make a mini-coffee pot full - 5c with 1 teabag), you poo the next day! It's great....Never in my life have I been so excited about going to the bathroom lol.
Well I didn't....but, the internet is working once again.
Today I'm doing a protein/protein shake day. I'll have my normal 2 shakes, and maybe a steak or chicken for dinner. That should give a great loss tomorrow. Possibly even into the 230s if I get lucky.
I meant to take my Apidexin today (because I'm planning on taking it my next bout of hhcg to finish off the bottle. I'll have to remember to take all my pills in the morning, it's too late today unless I feel like staying up until tomorrow,....which I don't.
I had a really weird comment on my last post that I had to delete because I couldn't understand what the hell it said.
Seriously people, learn to type in English.
Hmmmm, nothing else to talk about really.
LOVE MY SKINNY CHINESE TEA!!!!
If you're ever having plumbing problems (like we all do with a high protein diet), get some chinese skinny tea, it's like $3-$4, tastes great, and if you take it before bed (I make a mini-coffee pot full - 5c with 1 teabag), you poo the next day! It's great....Never in my life have I been so excited about going to the bathroom lol.
7/14/11
vlcd 9
Well I quit the challenge because I gained and stalled, and I was fed up with it. Too many hcg nazis. So I made my own hcg group for rogues and people who get shit about their goals (like when people are like OMG THATS TOO LOW ARE YOU CRAZY!? Fuck you. That's all I have to say.
So my group is for people that want SUPPORT not judgment.
Did a P2 egg day on Monday, lost 1#, did a Fat Fast day on Tuesday, gained 2.5, did an 800cal day yesterday, and lost the 2.5# I gained from the salt I stupidly took in on the fat fast day. (I ate like half a tub of parmesan cheese lol, 1200mg of salt for the day!
Also I'm probably lighter than 241, but I need to poo! Worst thing about this diet is the not pooing. I did go to the Chinese market and pick up some skinny tea so hopefully that will help. The Thai skinny tea worked wonders on Monday, but I don't know about the Chinese kind.
I'm stopping this round, possibly just an interruption for the weekend, but after the "challenge" I need a break, my mind is melting. I mlneed to get some REAL hcg. This hccg stuff might be working, but it's scary. I don't know if its actually doing anything or if I'm just being anorexic, and my hair is falling out more, which I know is a side effect for some, but it never happened t me before! And never when I was using real rx hcg. Soooooo, that's where I stand. Trying to save enough to buy hcg, syringes, and a bottle of bacteriostatic water, I have a few bottles of it but Jody doesn't know if you should reuse them long after opening. Sooooo I might try it on a vial (I'm planning on getting 2000iu vials) and see what happens. I guess Walmart has good prices on syringes but I don't know if they sell them without a prescription or what, so I think I'll just buy a box from Amazon....
Anyways, still on my phone so I probably wont be updating everyday, but I'll be around.
So my group is for people that want SUPPORT not judgment.
Did a P2 egg day on Monday, lost 1#, did a Fat Fast day on Tuesday, gained 2.5, did an 800cal day yesterday, and lost the 2.5# I gained from the salt I stupidly took in on the fat fast day. (I ate like half a tub of parmesan cheese lol, 1200mg of salt for the day!
Also I'm probably lighter than 241, but I need to poo! Worst thing about this diet is the not pooing. I did go to the Chinese market and pick up some skinny tea so hopefully that will help. The Thai skinny tea worked wonders on Monday, but I don't know about the Chinese kind.
I'm stopping this round, possibly just an interruption for the weekend, but after the "challenge" I need a break, my mind is melting. I mlneed to get some REAL hcg. This hccg stuff might be working, but it's scary. I don't know if its actually doing anything or if I'm just being anorexic, and my hair is falling out more, which I know is a side effect for some, but it never happened t me before! And never when I was using real rx hcg. Soooooo, that's where I stand. Trying to save enough to buy hcg, syringes, and a bottle of bacteriostatic water, I have a few bottles of it but Jody doesn't know if you should reuse them long after opening. Sooooo I might try it on a vial (I'm planning on getting 2000iu vials) and see what happens. I guess Walmart has good prices on syringes but I don't know if they sell them without a prescription or what, so I think I'll just buy a box from Amazon....
Anyways, still on my phone so I probably wont be updating everyday, but I'll be around.
7/9/11
Challenge Day 5 - VLCD5
Down 1.5,
240.5!!!! YAY.
I'm counting that as 240 and putting the "x" in my goal list --->
No net today, only my phone, so this is a short post :-)
Have a great one! Good luck to all you "losers"!
240.5!!!! YAY.
I'm counting that as 240 and putting the "x" in my goal list --->
No net today, only my phone, so this is a short post :-)
Have a great one! Good luck to all you "losers"!
7/8/11
Day FOUR of 4th of July Challenge - VLCD4
Down another 2.5, total so far: 9.5lbs in 4 days!! Technically 3 actual days of losing, but whatever.
I'm halfway already of my 20lbs goal for this round.
I guess it's proof that when you don't let anything get in your way or make you quit, YOU CAN ACHIEVE GOALS!!
Tomorrow I hope to be to my next mini-goal of 240!
I hope I can keep up this losing at least a little bit. I usually only lose like 12lbs per short round and thats only 3lbs more than what I've already lost. I don't want it to slow down. =[
I'm trying to think of ways to do my next round, like using a liquid diet, or the baby food diet. I always do better about avoiding for when I have only protein shakes, I think that's the hardest thing about the regular Dr. Simeons' protocol, controlling the food, I mean I can do portion control easy, but limiting to 2 meals is the hard part. Even when I'm not hungry I want to snack on something, which is why I just make all my fruits into slushies, it's easier to see it as a snack than part of my entire day's food when it's a slushie.
But for this round I'm chugging along with the original protocol!
And I have to say I'm doing AWESOMELY! Even if it is going to start slowing down drastically.
I still can't believe I'm almost to 240!
After that its 230, and 220, and 210, and 200, and ONEDERLAND!!!!
I'm halfway already of my 20lbs goal for this round.
I guess it's proof that when you don't let anything get in your way or make you quit, YOU CAN ACHIEVE GOALS!!
Tomorrow I hope to be to my next mini-goal of 240!
I hope I can keep up this losing at least a little bit. I usually only lose like 12lbs per short round and thats only 3lbs more than what I've already lost. I don't want it to slow down. =[
I'm trying to think of ways to do my next round, like using a liquid diet, or the baby food diet. I always do better about avoiding for when I have only protein shakes, I think that's the hardest thing about the regular Dr. Simeons' protocol, controlling the food, I mean I can do portion control easy, but limiting to 2 meals is the hard part. Even when I'm not hungry I want to snack on something, which is why I just make all my fruits into slushies, it's easier to see it as a snack than part of my entire day's food when it's a slushie.
But for this round I'm chugging along with the original protocol!
And I have to say I'm doing AWESOMELY! Even if it is going to start slowing down drastically.
I still can't believe I'm almost to 240!
After that its 230, and 220, and 210, and 200, and ONEDERLAND!!!!
7/7/11
Day three of 4th of July Challenge - VLCD3
Down another 3.5! SO my loading weight is gone, plus 1 pound =] Back to 244.5!!!
definitely making this POP thing easier to handle. My losses are always really good until I give in and start mega-cheating though, so lets not jix it now. I'm feeling awesome about myself!!!
So for breakfast, I had my coffee smoothie thing, lol.. I hate coffee, but it helps me to make all my drinks into smoothies to get in all of my water for the day, and obviously, IT'S WORKING!!!
I had to re-calculate my weight to see how much per month I have to lose to even get into ONEderland, 21lbs per month!!!! (Ok, that calculation is actually to get to my lowest MINI-GOAL of 120), which I am sooooo DREAMING OF!!!
So I've wasted alot of time because last time I calculated, I think last month, I would have only had to lose 16lbs/month.
SO THERE YOU GO - PROOF THAT NOT ACTIVELY TRYING TO LOSE WEIGHT IS A WASTE OF TIME!!!! (when you're as heavy as I am at least)
I think for someone big like me a number is VERY HELPFUL just to be able to see what can be in the future. People are all psycho up on me when they hear my goal is 115. I'm 5'6" and I've had a body scan so I know exactly how tiny my bones are...SCARY. 115 is a number. I'll stop when I feel comfortable with my body. And when I blow all of those nay-sayers out of the water with my newfound BONES. I just want a peek, I know they're in there somewhere....At least I think they are...I've never even had a glimpse of them.
I don't want to be the fat friend. I want to be the skinny bitch that gets all the guys and free drinks. The girl that gets let into VIP just because she's HOT.
Yes, that's going to be me.
Ok I have to pee. AGAIN. Gotta love drinking almost a gallon of water every day.
definitely making this POP thing easier to handle. My losses are always really good until I give in and start mega-cheating though, so lets not jix it now. I'm feeling awesome about myself!!!
So for breakfast, I had my coffee smoothie thing, lol.. I hate coffee, but it helps me to make all my drinks into smoothies to get in all of my water for the day, and obviously, IT'S WORKING!!!
I had to re-calculate my weight to see how much per month I have to lose to even get into ONEderland, 21lbs per month!!!! (Ok, that calculation is actually to get to my lowest MINI-GOAL of 120), which I am sooooo DREAMING OF!!!
So I've wasted alot of time because last time I calculated, I think last month, I would have only had to lose 16lbs/month.
SO THERE YOU GO - PROOF THAT NOT ACTIVELY TRYING TO LOSE WEIGHT IS A WASTE OF TIME!!!! (when you're as heavy as I am at least)
I think for someone big like me a number is VERY HELPFUL just to be able to see what can be in the future. People are all psycho up on me when they hear my goal is 115. I'm 5'6" and I've had a body scan so I know exactly how tiny my bones are...SCARY. 115 is a number. I'll stop when I feel comfortable with my body. And when I blow all of those nay-sayers out of the water with my newfound BONES. I just want a peek, I know they're in there somewhere....At least I think they are...I've never even had a glimpse of them.
I don't want to be the fat friend. I want to be the skinny bitch that gets all the guys and free drinks. The girl that gets let into VIP just because she's HOT.
Yes, that's going to be me.
Ok I have to pee. AGAIN. Gotta love drinking almost a gallon of water every day.
7/6/11
Day 2 Update
Alright!!! Decided to make my ultimate goal even crazier, i.e.: 108-110LBS!!
That will put me at a UNDERWEIGHT BMI. Which I am paying no heed to, because the BMI is full of shit anyways.
Ok, honestly I'll just stop when I either get tired of dieting or fit into at least a size 5 pants. Which I'm guessing will be around 120lbs.
Also, hung up my ultimate goal Size 5 pants on the wall!
Which seems really weird to me, but I guess alot of people do it to "see" their goal for motivation.
Doing really good today,
Getting ready to have dinner pretty soon.
And I still have a fruit to eat!!
That will put me at a UNDERWEIGHT BMI. Which I am paying no heed to, because the BMI is full of shit anyways.
Ok, honestly I'll just stop when I either get tired of dieting or fit into at least a size 5 pants. Which I'm guessing will be around 120lbs.
Also, hung up my ultimate goal Size 5 pants on the wall!
Which seems really weird to me, but I guess alot of people do it to "see" their goal for motivation.
Doing really good today,
Getting ready to have dinner pretty soon.
And I still have a fruit to eat!!
Day TWO of 4th of July Challenge - VLCD2
DOWN 3.5LBS!! So, nicely back in the 240s. I hate the 250s, they scare me!!
Hopefully tomorrow all of my loading weight will be gone. I don't know how much hubby lost because our scale battery went dead again and I had to find a new one this morning to weigh in!
So he'll weigh when he gets home. I hope he lost something so he'll feel better about the calorie restriction.
For breakfast I'm having an iced coffee slushy with PureVia.
It's ok, hopefully I'll stay awake until bedtime, instead of like yesterday, where I tried to take a nap but my son was NOT having THAT!
For lunch I'll have an orange or strawberry sorbet/slushy or something.
And have a meat for snack and dinner.
Out of vegetables again, I literally have ONE tomato and HALF of a green bell pepper.. I have to re-check the list, but I don't think bell peppers are on it!
Does a chicken and tomato soup sound good?
It doesn't to me, but I don't have any other veggies to put in a soup!
I hope Friday comes fast.
Oh, I guess it will because it's already WEDNESDAY! I was totally jsut thinking it was Tuesday, because I usually start VLCDs on Mondays.
I haven't been studying my Thai this week, I just don't feel up to it right now, and I don't like fighting with my son when I'm doing my lesson, because he tries to "help" and pushes tons of buttons while I'm trying to do a lesson, maybe if he ever takes a nap!
Ok off to find some thinspo, God knows I need it for this POP crap!!!
Hopefully tomorrow all of my loading weight will be gone. I don't know how much hubby lost because our scale battery went dead again and I had to find a new one this morning to weigh in!
So he'll weigh when he gets home. I hope he lost something so he'll feel better about the calorie restriction.
For breakfast I'm having an iced coffee slushy with PureVia.
It's ok, hopefully I'll stay awake until bedtime, instead of like yesterday, where I tried to take a nap but my son was NOT having THAT!
For lunch I'll have an orange or strawberry sorbet/slushy or something.
And have a meat for snack and dinner.
Out of vegetables again, I literally have ONE tomato and HALF of a green bell pepper.. I have to re-check the list, but I don't think bell peppers are on it!
Does a chicken and tomato soup sound good?
It doesn't to me, but I don't have any other veggies to put in a soup!
I hope Friday comes fast.
Oh, I guess it will because it's already WEDNESDAY! I was totally jsut thinking it was Tuesday, because I usually start VLCDs on Mondays.
I haven't been studying my Thai this week, I just don't feel up to it right now, and I don't like fighting with my son when I'm doing my lesson, because he tries to "help" and pushes tons of buttons while I'm trying to do a lesson, maybe if he ever takes a nap!
Ok off to find some thinspo, God knows I need it for this POP crap!!!
7/5/11
Day 1 Update
So I'm blogging right now to keep myself from going crazy and eating stuff I'm not supposed to.
This POP (perfectly on protocol) stuff is hard after you've been doing YOP (your own protocol) for so long! I better have a good loss in the morning, I feel like I'm suffering for no reason right now lol, mostly because of that 6lb loading gain!
I really want a piece of my sugarfree dark chocolate peppermint patties, but I won't. I'll keep trying to think of things to blabber on about until I go to bed! Ok, just kidding, I'm out of things to talk about right now.
*crosses fingers* Really, really, realllllly hoping for a good loss in the morning.
Of course I won't know because my scale battery went dead again!
Fuck.
This POP (perfectly on protocol) stuff is hard after you've been doing YOP (your own protocol) for so long! I better have a good loss in the morning, I feel like I'm suffering for no reason right now lol, mostly because of that 6lb loading gain!
I really want a piece of my sugarfree dark chocolate peppermint patties, but I won't. I'll keep trying to think of things to blabber on about until I go to bed! Ok, just kidding, I'm out of things to talk about right now.
*crosses fingers* Really, really, realllllly hoping for a good loss in the morning.
Of course I won't know because my scale battery went dead again!
Fuck.
Day One of 4th of July Challenge - VLCD1
After loading weigh-in: 251.5lbs, I GAINED 6 POUNDS LOADING!!!
So I'm back on the P2 wagon, using my HCG pellets from www.gfchealthproducts.info, and Hubby is doing this round with me, he gained almost 7 pounds!!! And I swear I ate more than him, because he kept eating until he felt sick and the HCG seemed to be working on his hunger better than mine.
Now I'm trying to keep cravings at bay, I'm not hungry but I just want to sit around and stuff my face. So I'm going to be online alot this round, because I have to stay POP (perfectly on protocol), which means NO CHEATING AT ALL.
I hate loading mostly because it ruins my whole mindset and makes it really hard to get back to dieting, loading you have to eat all oyu can and that makes the first few days/weeks of VLCD hard because you have to reset your thinking back to "no you're not hungry - you don't need to eat".
So now I have to get back into my anorexic mindset, "Fat-ass, you don't need that food, you're in control, not the cravings, suck on some ice or something!"
So I'm back on the P2 wagon, using my HCG pellets from www.gfchealthproducts.info, and Hubby is doing this round with me, he gained almost 7 pounds!!! And I swear I ate more than him, because he kept eating until he felt sick and the HCG seemed to be working on his hunger better than mine.
Now I'm trying to keep cravings at bay, I'm not hungry but I just want to sit around and stuff my face. So I'm going to be online alot this round, because I have to stay POP (perfectly on protocol), which means NO CHEATING AT ALL.
I hate loading mostly because it ruins my whole mindset and makes it really hard to get back to dieting, loading you have to eat all oyu can and that makes the first few days/weeks of VLCD hard because you have to reset your thinking back to "no you're not hungry - you don't need to eat".
So now I have to get back into my anorexic mindset, "Fat-ass, you don't need that food, you're in control, not the cravings, suck on some ice or something!"
7/1/11
2 Days to Challenge
Forgot to take my Apidexin yesterday.
Was down 1lb this morning. 245.5 again.
Actually it was 244.5 two times and 245.5 once, so I'm going with the higher weight just to be happy if I lose tomorrow haha.
And then my scale battery died.
I need to find my extrea or go buy some before it gets too late tonight.
Took my Apidexin today, and I've only eaten Macaroni and Cheese with hotdogs, 3 Almond windmill cookies (I know-BAD), and a strawberry/banana protein shake.
I think I'll have Omar run to McDonald's for a mcdouble for dinner....
Then again we might just get a pizza from Hungry Howie's. Mmmmm, I love Hungry Howie's. I get my half in cheese and he gets half ham. With my choice, garlic herb crust. =]
Maybe we'll get Corrleone's though. They have twice the pizza for $4 more......I really love HH's though haha.
Was down 1lb this morning. 245.5 again.
Actually it was 244.5 two times and 245.5 once, so I'm going with the higher weight just to be happy if I lose tomorrow haha.
And then my scale battery died.
I need to find my extrea or go buy some before it gets too late tonight.
Took my Apidexin today, and I've only eaten Macaroni and Cheese with hotdogs, 3 Almond windmill cookies (I know-BAD), and a strawberry/banana protein shake.
I think I'll have Omar run to McDonald's for a mcdouble for dinner....
Then again we might just get a pizza from Hungry Howie's. Mmmmm, I love Hungry Howie's. I get my half in cheese and he gets half ham. With my choice, garlic herb crust. =]
Maybe we'll get Corrleone's though. They have twice the pizza for $4 more......I really love HH's though haha.
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