Are the best thing ever!
40 cals each they make a yummy snack and you can have 10 with only 400cals for the day!
Not that I'm advocating replacing meals with Fudgcicles, but yummm, do they make awesome snacks! =D
My Journey Using HCG & Other Weight Loss Methods
I'm always open for help and ideas so don't be afraid to comment!
5/31/11
Being Inpatient Sucks!
I swear I am like THE most impatient person ever.
I feel like a cow for not losing weight right now, lol, I guess that comes with the territory when you've basically been losing constantly and all of a sudden have basically stopped trying to lose. Now I'm supposed to just keep the same weight. That is normally easy for me, but right now my mindset is just: LOSE, LOSE, LOSE!
So I decided to blog right now to take my mind off of buying a 40 day bttle of the hCG pellets lol, because I'm too impatient to wait for my Apidexin. Which has been shipped as of today! =D
So here I am, nothing really to talk about, I just feel like a fat-ass for eating normally I guess, and just maintaining my current weight.
I just want to get back on the losing track.
I think I'm going to try fasting sometimes soon, and maybe on my next hCG round too. That's basically what I do when I replace my meals with protein shakes, a liquid diet. It seems to work best, but after a whil I get bored with it and end up eating normally which does not help with the losing, but is great for the current task of maintaining.
I guess before my Apidexin gets here I should probably work on a meal plan idea and a new food journal section for dieting with the pills. I find that keeping a journal really keeps me on track with my dieting and weight loss. When I don't constantly write in it though, I get off track and start cheating.
Not good at all. I should probably just keep writing constantly, on here, in my journal, on random pieces of paper, wherever, you know? Just to keep my mind on the goal.
16lbs a month should be a piece of cake, making my 130lb goal also a piece of cake, and at the end I'll eventually be able to have A PIECE OF CAKE, LOL.
I feel like a cow for not losing weight right now, lol, I guess that comes with the territory when you've basically been losing constantly and all of a sudden have basically stopped trying to lose. Now I'm supposed to just keep the same weight. That is normally easy for me, but right now my mindset is just: LOSE, LOSE, LOSE!
So I decided to blog right now to take my mind off of buying a 40 day bttle of the hCG pellets lol, because I'm too impatient to wait for my Apidexin. Which has been shipped as of today! =D
So here I am, nothing really to talk about, I just feel like a fat-ass for eating normally I guess, and just maintaining my current weight.
I just want to get back on the losing track.
I think I'm going to try fasting sometimes soon, and maybe on my next hCG round too. That's basically what I do when I replace my meals with protein shakes, a liquid diet. It seems to work best, but after a whil I get bored with it and end up eating normally which does not help with the losing, but is great for the current task of maintaining.
I guess before my Apidexin gets here I should probably work on a meal plan idea and a new food journal section for dieting with the pills. I find that keeping a journal really keeps me on track with my dieting and weight loss. When I don't constantly write in it though, I get off track and start cheating.
Not good at all. I should probably just keep writing constantly, on here, in my journal, on random pieces of paper, wherever, you know? Just to keep my mind on the goal.
16lbs a month should be a piece of cake, making my 130lb goal also a piece of cake, and at the end I'll eventually be able to have A PIECE OF CAKE, LOL.
5/30/11
I Feel Like Crap When I'm Not Actively Losing Weight
Seriously.
Like now, being between rounds, eating P3 foods, I feel like a fatass because I'm not trying to lose weight.
I know that because of the weight I aim to lose, I shouldn't take a break if I ever want to get there, I have so far to go. So much to lose. 130lbs!? That's an entire person's weight!
I feel guilty for not trying to get rid of it, for taking a break from losing weight.
I don't feel like I should stabilize until I'm done losing all the weight I need to, until I feel comfortable at the size I end up with.
Last night I measured and I have actually gained 1" on everything: arms, thighs, calves, stomach, hips, and bust.
I cried and my boyfriend tried to tell me I'm not fat and that I'll start losing again when I get my pills and later when I get back on the hCG track. But I don't care about the future when I'm depressed about right now, lol. Nice of him to try though. Of course that's only because he wanted sex. Men. They're all pigs lol, even the good ones.
And no, I don't feel like "doing it" when I feel like a fricken cow.
Tomorrow my pills will be sent and by the end of the week I should get them. Maybe after that I'll stop feeling hopeless because with all luck I'll be losing weight again.
I might buy those hCG pellets before the end of the month and do the pills and hCG at the same time.
I also need to get back to protein shakes, on or off hCG, so I don't have to worry about what kind of crap I'm eating, if it comes up to a burger and a protein shake, I think I should do the shake. Right?
Moving On, (should be my trademarked phrase)
Here are some pictures I think are nice looking, inspirational, and probably controversial.
And in light of last weekend's Comicon!
Comic Girls:
Like now, being between rounds, eating P3 foods, I feel like a fatass because I'm not trying to lose weight.
I know that because of the weight I aim to lose, I shouldn't take a break if I ever want to get there, I have so far to go. So much to lose. 130lbs!? That's an entire person's weight!
I feel guilty for not trying to get rid of it, for taking a break from losing weight.
I don't feel like I should stabilize until I'm done losing all the weight I need to, until I feel comfortable at the size I end up with.
Last night I measured and I have actually gained 1" on everything: arms, thighs, calves, stomach, hips, and bust.
I cried and my boyfriend tried to tell me I'm not fat and that I'll start losing again when I get my pills and later when I get back on the hCG track. But I don't care about the future when I'm depressed about right now, lol. Nice of him to try though. Of course that's only because he wanted sex. Men. They're all pigs lol, even the good ones.
And no, I don't feel like "doing it" when I feel like a fricken cow.
Tomorrow my pills will be sent and by the end of the week I should get them. Maybe after that I'll stop feeling hopeless because with all luck I'll be losing weight again.
I might buy those hCG pellets before the end of the month and do the pills and hCG at the same time.
I also need to get back to protein shakes, on or off hCG, so I don't have to worry about what kind of crap I'm eating, if it comes up to a burger and a protein shake, I think I should do the shake. Right?
Moving On, (should be my trademarked phrase)
Here are some pictures I think are nice looking, inspirational, and probably controversial.
And in light of last weekend's Comicon!
Comic Girls:
5/29/11
P3 Starts Tomorrow - Ordered My Apidexin
I've completely given up on this entire round. I am back to my starting weight of 249. I'm not changing my tickers because I'm hoping it will help me to stay focused on getting back down there.
I just ordered my Apidexin diet pills last night, and because of the holiday weekend, and tomorrow being the holiday (Memorial Day), I won't be expecting the pills until at least Thursday-Saturday.
So for the next few days I'm going to be impatiently waiting for them to arrive, and hopefully I'll be stabilized by then and then with the Apidexin I'll be able to lose some more weight this summer, at least getting down to 225-210 if I'm lucky. I expect maybe down to 230 for the first bottle and 210 with the second if losses don't slow too much.
After summer, around August, I'll start the hCG diet again, this time I'm going to try hCG pellets, so homeopathic "hcg". I'm very skeptical of "homeopathic hcg" for the pure fact that it's NOT actual hCG. It's a mix of different herbs and whatever that's supposed to make your body make its own hCG.
My friend Cat is using Intermountain Hcg's pellets and they've been working awesomely for her so far. Hardly any hunger and great losses. So I'm really interested in it. I'm probably going to go with www.gfchealthproducts.info because I can get 3 bottles (40 days each) for $50, instead of at www.intermountainhcg.comwhere you get 2 bottles (40 days each) for $50. I haven't decided what I'm going to do yet, but I have a couple of months to decide, and those two places are the cheapest I've seen. Some people want upwards of $60/bottle! Yeah sorry I'm fat and poor, I don't want to spend $60 for 1 1/2 months when I can get 5 months for $50! Sometimes I wonder where people get their common sense rom, mainly because they don't have any!
So that's where I'm at now, just about to start stabilizing and then back on the diet track with better food options for the summertime!
And after summer, I'll be back to major restrictions and hcg. Hopefully I wont hav the problems I had with this round. I think when my hCG froze on the way to my dad's a couple of weeks ago, it basically died and lost potency.
In short, this round has been completely horrible for me, I've never had any problems or hunger or anything while on hCG until this round and I tried my hardest, even with the unnatural hunger pains, to keep to the protocol and my plan, but sometimes it's just not meant to be. So I lost a few weeks of my weight loss, I'll just try to make up for it later on, and I sitll plan to make goal by early next year.
My goal I guess is to lose at least 120lbs in the next 8 months, which is January.
People have done it before so I feel like it's a reasonable goal, especially since it's only 15lbs/month. I can do 15lbs each month, that should be easy enough.....I hope. =)
I just ordered my Apidexin diet pills last night, and because of the holiday weekend, and tomorrow being the holiday (Memorial Day), I won't be expecting the pills until at least Thursday-Saturday.
So for the next few days I'm going to be impatiently waiting for them to arrive, and hopefully I'll be stabilized by then and then with the Apidexin I'll be able to lose some more weight this summer, at least getting down to 225-210 if I'm lucky. I expect maybe down to 230 for the first bottle and 210 with the second if losses don't slow too much.
After summer, around August, I'll start the hCG diet again, this time I'm going to try hCG pellets, so homeopathic "hcg". I'm very skeptical of "homeopathic hcg" for the pure fact that it's NOT actual hCG. It's a mix of different herbs and whatever that's supposed to make your body make its own hCG.
My friend Cat is using Intermountain Hcg's pellets and they've been working awesomely for her so far. Hardly any hunger and great losses. So I'm really interested in it. I'm probably going to go with www.gfchealthproducts.info because I can get 3 bottles (40 days each) for $50, instead of at www.intermountainhcg.comwhere you get 2 bottles (40 days each) for $50. I haven't decided what I'm going to do yet, but I have a couple of months to decide, and those two places are the cheapest I've seen. Some people want upwards of $60/bottle! Yeah sorry I'm fat and poor, I don't want to spend $60 for 1 1/2 months when I can get 5 months for $50! Sometimes I wonder where people get their common sense rom, mainly because they don't have any!
So that's where I'm at now, just about to start stabilizing and then back on the diet track with better food options for the summertime!
And after summer, I'll be back to major restrictions and hcg. Hopefully I wont hav the problems I had with this round. I think when my hCG froze on the way to my dad's a couple of weeks ago, it basically died and lost potency.
In short, this round has been completely horrible for me, I've never had any problems or hunger or anything while on hCG until this round and I tried my hardest, even with the unnatural hunger pains, to keep to the protocol and my plan, but sometimes it's just not meant to be. So I lost a few weeks of my weight loss, I'll just try to make up for it later on, and I sitll plan to make goal by early next year.
My goal I guess is to lose at least 120lbs in the next 8 months, which is January.
People have done it before so I feel like it's a reasonable goal, especially since it's only 15lbs/month. I can do 15lbs each month, that should be easy enough.....I hope. =)
5/25/11
VLCD15
Well I guess I didn't lose yesterday like I thought. My scale is really crappy, but I can't afford a good one.
And I was expecting a big loss today but I didn't drink nearly enough water, so I think if I drown myself today I'll lose at least 2lbs of water weight alone lol, not to mention fat.
Also, I didn't get nearly enough sleep, I stayed up watching a movie and then my friend woke me up at 6am.
Tomorrow will be better I think,
And this weekend I'm closing off this round to break for summer.
I'm not as low as I would like to be, but I'm still closer to my "Before July" goal than I was. I have 20lbs to the number I wanted over summer.
That being said I was going to go another round through June to make it to my goal of 225 for July.
225 to me is like 125 is to normal people lol, my perfect weight (while I'm still fat).
I guess I might update when I have more to say.
But I'll probably forget instead. Lol.
And I was expecting a big loss today but I didn't drink nearly enough water, so I think if I drown myself today I'll lose at least 2lbs of water weight alone lol, not to mention fat.
Also, I didn't get nearly enough sleep, I stayed up watching a movie and then my friend woke me up at 6am.
Tomorrow will be better I think,
And this weekend I'm closing off this round to break for summer.
I'm not as low as I would like to be, but I'm still closer to my "Before July" goal than I was. I have 20lbs to the number I wanted over summer.
That being said I was going to go another round through June to make it to my goal of 225 for July.
225 to me is like 125 is to normal people lol, my perfect weight (while I'm still fat).
I guess I might update when I have more to say.
But I'll probably forget instead. Lol.
5/24/11
My Goals: An Explanation
My "Thinspiration"
I use the word "thinspiration" because that's what it is, inspiration to be thin.
Yes, I enjoy looking to thin people as inspiration and that is my choice.
IT DOES NOT MEAN I WANT TO BE THEM.
Or have an "unhealthy" view of how I should be.
And no-one has the right to judge those people, or the ones who wish to look like them.
You don't know what they actually weigh do you? You're not them.
I don't aim for bones, but if you do I'm not one to judge.
I'm glad if you enjoy my choices in photography and my idea of a type of beauty.
If you don't like it, scroll past it or push the little "x" in the top corner, easy right?
It keeps me focused on my goal of a flat stomach and small thighs instead of raiding the fridge to feed my tree-trunk legs. (Literally, they're 30" around.)
My Goal Number of 114.5:
I have a small number for a goal because I think it's a good kick-in-the-ass to keep me on track to becoming thinner, and again, keep me from eating a house due to dieting and restraint, lol.
Its not any different than taping a bikini picture from a magazine on your fridge to avoid extra goodies. Or hanging a goal pair of pants to your bedroom wall or closet door.
I don't have money to buy a pair of pants I can't wear for a year, or possibly ever.
Reciepts don't last forever, pictures I can take down if I give up.
Different Views:
A "healthy weight" is is not the same for everyone.
My healthy weight is between 115 and 125, 130 starts in on a little belly flub.
(I know because my best friend is the exact same build and height, but she's thin, size 7)
My mom is also in the higher 120s and a little flubbery, she's shorter by an inch or 2, so she has a smaller number than will be my end goal.
A Note To The "Do-Gooders"
In the end, for all you people who think they should "save" everyone from themselves and go all Dr. Oz, Dr. Phil on their ass.
Also, I know there are a lot of HCG self-appointed GODS, but I'm not into arguing, and "purist" methodology? Well, I'm over that.
And seriously? What kind of idiot is going to worry about a 250lb person losing "too-much" weight?
I think bored people need hobbies, and I don't think I want to be someone's hobby.
A flat stomach is my ultimate goal and I don't think that's unhealthy.
Do notice that I said a flat stomach and not "the skeleton look".
I weigh 245lbs and even when I do weigh up to 290 I can feel my hip bones, ribs, and collarbones. THROUGH my lovely fat and skin...when I lay down, lol. Why would I need any affirmation that they're there more than that?
"Here, scoot over or I'll poke you with my bones."
Yeah, no thanks.
Attention Everybody:
If it works for you, then work it.
There is no "right way" for every individual person.
By the way, does anyone know who Kate Moss is?
Someone left me a comment talking about her eating disorders and idk who the hell she is...and I definitely don't care about her personal issues.
I guess I'll go Google around.
COMPLETELY OFF TOPIC:
Unlike most (apparently), I don't worry myself with other peoples lives.
Which makes me think of the whole Arnold and Maria thing. PEOPLE, GET A LIFE, I don't see people freaking out half as much when normal men or women cheat. And it kind of comes with the fame business to have the option of cheating. Maybe he had a reason to do it. Like unhappiness.
Now I'm reminded me of that Dr Phil mistresses episode.
More high and mighties judging everyone but themselves.
I use the word "thinspiration" because that's what it is, inspiration to be thin.
Yes, I enjoy looking to thin people as inspiration and that is my choice.
IT DOES NOT MEAN I WANT TO BE THEM.
Or have an "unhealthy" view of how I should be.
And no-one has the right to judge those people, or the ones who wish to look like them.
You don't know what they actually weigh do you? You're not them.
I don't aim for bones, but if you do I'm not one to judge.
I'm glad if you enjoy my choices in photography and my idea of a type of beauty.
If you don't like it, scroll past it or push the little "x" in the top corner, easy right?
It keeps me focused on my goal of a flat stomach and small thighs instead of raiding the fridge to feed my tree-trunk legs. (Literally, they're 30" around.)
My Goal Number of 114.5:
I have a small number for a goal because I think it's a good kick-in-the-ass to keep me on track to becoming thinner, and again, keep me from eating a house due to dieting and restraint, lol.
Its not any different than taping a bikini picture from a magazine on your fridge to avoid extra goodies. Or hanging a goal pair of pants to your bedroom wall or closet door.
I don't have money to buy a pair of pants I can't wear for a year, or possibly ever.
Reciepts don't last forever, pictures I can take down if I give up.
Different Views:
A "healthy weight" is is not the same for everyone.
My healthy weight is between 115 and 125, 130 starts in on a little belly flub.
(I know because my best friend is the exact same build and height, but she's thin, size 7)
My mom is also in the higher 120s and a little flubbery, she's shorter by an inch or 2, so she has a smaller number than will be my end goal.
A Note To The "Do-Gooders"
In the end, for all you people who think they should "save" everyone from themselves and go all Dr. Oz, Dr. Phil on their ass.
Also, I know there are a lot of HCG self-appointed GODS, but I'm not into arguing, and "purist" methodology? Well, I'm over that.
And seriously? What kind of idiot is going to worry about a 250lb person losing "too-much" weight?
I think bored people need hobbies, and I don't think I want to be someone's hobby.
A flat stomach is my ultimate goal and I don't think that's unhealthy.
Do notice that I said a flat stomach and not "the skeleton look".
I weigh 245lbs and even when I do weigh up to 290 I can feel my hip bones, ribs, and collarbones. THROUGH my lovely fat and skin...when I lay down, lol. Why would I need any affirmation that they're there more than that?
"Here, scoot over or I'll poke you with my bones."
Yeah, no thanks.
Attention Everybody:
If it works for you, then work it.
There is no "right way" for every individual person.
By the way, does anyone know who Kate Moss is?
Someone left me a comment talking about her eating disorders and idk who the hell she is...and I definitely don't care about her personal issues.
I guess I'll go Google around.
COMPLETELY OFF TOPIC:
Unlike most (apparently), I don't worry myself with other peoples lives.
Which makes me think of the whole Arnold and Maria thing. PEOPLE, GET A LIFE, I don't see people freaking out half as much when normal men or women cheat. And it kind of comes with the fame business to have the option of cheating. Maybe he had a reason to do it. Like unhappiness.
Now I'm reminded me of that Dr Phil mistresses episode.
More high and mighties judging everyone but themselves.
VLCD14
Well, I couldn't get a good read from my scale this morning, I'm somewhere between 243.5 and 245.5, so I'm just going to mark 245 off of my mini goal list to the side --->
Yesterday I had my shake for breakfast, steak tacos for lunch, and a shake for dinner.
So it seems as long as I only have one actual meal when drinking the shakes my weight goes down.
Its easier to just have shakes here at dad's and one meal, because there's a lot of food here I'm not allowed to have on the VLC diet.
Today's thinspiration will be legs and stomachs.
I looked in the mirror last night and I think my thighs are finally getting smaller!
This is AWESOME to me because my thighs, well my legs in general, are like skinny girls' legs in one pantleg lol.
There's a good goal. To be able to stand in one pantleg of my current pants down the road, lol.
Yesterday I had my shake for breakfast, steak tacos for lunch, and a shake for dinner.
So it seems as long as I only have one actual meal when drinking the shakes my weight goes down.
Its easier to just have shakes here at dad's and one meal, because there's a lot of food here I'm not allowed to have on the VLC diet.
Today's thinspiration will be legs and stomachs.
I looked in the mirror last night and I think my thighs are finally getting smaller!
This is AWESOME to me because my thighs, well my legs in general, are like skinny girls' legs in one pantleg lol.
There's a good goal. To be able to stand in one pantleg of my current pants down the road, lol.
5/23/11
vlcd13
Well, no loss today.
I think that's because, instead of having a shake for breakfast, steak for lunch and another shake for dinner, I had a piece of chicken and green beans for dinner.
I'll try the shake for dinner tonight and see what happens.
Finding back/spine thinspo is really hard! Especially when you're not looking for pictures of skeletons, but real, good-looking, photography. (I love good photography)
I found like 3 or 4 I think, so I'll try and post them.
My friend Jody and I both have the same goal, a stick-thickness one!
No but really, to at least be able to see the spinal column.
She's been that small before, I've never been under a size 12 since 6th grade, (and a 38 in jeans for 7th grade...I did fit into Kmart size 13's in 8th, but it was a very stretched fit), so that's where we stand as of now. She has like 30lbs to lose and I still have 130lbs to lose.
I'm more focused on my legs/thighs because I've had tree-trunk thunderthighs my whole life and I'm sick of them. Plus, and I say this with no offense to people of different colors, but I'm sick of only getting cat-called from black guys and Mexicans.
I've had my share of both, but I've only been looked at by like 4 people of my own color in my entire life, including this mega-sweet Brazillian guy in Las Vegas, can you say YUM.
So I figure its an understandable goal.
I don't want to be that fat white lady married to a Mexican or black guy because that's the only person who will have her fat ass.
I'm am completely over "hood-dreams" and want excitement and glamour, and lots of money wouldn't hurt either, so lots of education.
I think that's because, instead of having a shake for breakfast, steak for lunch and another shake for dinner, I had a piece of chicken and green beans for dinner.
I'll try the shake for dinner tonight and see what happens.
Finding back/spine thinspo is really hard! Especially when you're not looking for pictures of skeletons, but real, good-looking, photography. (I love good photography)
I found like 3 or 4 I think, so I'll try and post them.
My friend Jody and I both have the same goal, a stick-thickness one!
No but really, to at least be able to see the spinal column.
She's been that small before, I've never been under a size 12 since 6th grade, (and a 38 in jeans for 7th grade...I did fit into Kmart size 13's in 8th, but it was a very stretched fit), so that's where we stand as of now. She has like 30lbs to lose and I still have 130lbs to lose.
I'm more focused on my legs/thighs because I've had tree-trunk thunderthighs my whole life and I'm sick of them. Plus, and I say this with no offense to people of different colors, but I'm sick of only getting cat-called from black guys and Mexicans.
I've had my share of both, but I've only been looked at by like 4 people of my own color in my entire life, including this mega-sweet Brazillian guy in Las Vegas, can you say YUM.
So I figure its an understandable goal.
I don't want to be that fat white lady married to a Mexican or black guy because that's the only person who will have her fat ass.
I'm am completely over "hood-dreams" and want excitement and glamour, and lots of money wouldn't hurt either, so lots of education.
5/22/11
VLCD12
I haven't been keeping track of the vlc days actually, I've been pretty much overeating (dietwise), well not really "overeating" persay, but eating off protocol and off plan, crackers, cheese, a little pasta.
Like I said, I lost 2.5 from last Monday's food choices, and after that I fell off course and stalled and yesterday gained .5lb.
But yesterday I ate pretty much the same as Monday, and this morning I'm down 1.5lb (1 if you don't count yesterday's gain).
I am 21lbs from 225 and approximately at the weight I was when I went in for my first Dr's appt when I was pregnant. So the weight I was at about 3 months pregnant.
There's a nice hurdle to overcome I think. And it only took 2 years to get off. Lol 10lbs from diet and exercise that I gained back, and off from on and inbetween hCG.
I am one pound from my next mini-goal of 245lbs!
Mini-goals are nice because you're not freaking out about how fast you're getting to your ultimate goal.
I've decided to try Apidexin over the summer months (June/July) and in August I plan on doing more rounds of hCG, until I make it to goal, hopefully next year sometime. I'm hoping next summer 2012 to be comfortable in a two-piece swimsuit, God-willing my stretch marks aren't horrible and I don't have a lot of extra skin.
Also, next year I'm hoping to reinstate our yearly family vacation to Laughlin, NV for 4th of July.
Wish me lots of luck!
Apidexin is a fat burner that's supposed to help you burn fat while building lean muscles. It has a very high review rate, with only a few people not having results. Keep in mind that those people rarely kept on it for more than 3 days to a week. Anyone with half a brain knows that you have to wait three days to a week just for the substance to circulate in your system and allow your body to get used to it.
On average it has about the same rate of weight loss as hCG, the only difference is you're allowed to eat food with the pills, but with hCG you at least know you're losing the right kind of fat.
Did I mention Apidexin has a money back guarantee for one open bottle and any amount of unopened bottles? If I don't like it and it doesn't work I just send it back!
So that's where I stand today, I have a lot of ideas and I'm kind of proud to finally be serious about finally getting read of this overpadded body.
I'm just glad I'm not "ROUND" FAT I'm just "thick all over" FAT.
I will try to find some thinspiration, because I feel like if I don't look at thinspiration then I fall off track a lot easier. It's easy to lose sight of your goals sometimes.
I LOVEEE GINA GERSHON!
She's so bad-ass and beautiful..
And her Showgirls co-star Elizabeth Berkley
(I love that movie)
And some randoms...
My Bestie Reina when she was skinny:
She's the one who told me her friend lost tons with hCG.
I love this girls legs, I want to be able to wear bright ass tights! lol
Hello future legs =P
Like I said, I lost 2.5 from last Monday's food choices, and after that I fell off course and stalled and yesterday gained .5lb.
But yesterday I ate pretty much the same as Monday, and this morning I'm down 1.5lb (1 if you don't count yesterday's gain).
I am 21lbs from 225 and approximately at the weight I was when I went in for my first Dr's appt when I was pregnant. So the weight I was at about 3 months pregnant.
There's a nice hurdle to overcome I think. And it only took 2 years to get off. Lol 10lbs from diet and exercise that I gained back, and off from on and inbetween hCG.
I am one pound from my next mini-goal of 245lbs!
Mini-goals are nice because you're not freaking out about how fast you're getting to your ultimate goal.
I've decided to try Apidexin over the summer months (June/July) and in August I plan on doing more rounds of hCG, until I make it to goal, hopefully next year sometime. I'm hoping next summer 2012 to be comfortable in a two-piece swimsuit, God-willing my stretch marks aren't horrible and I don't have a lot of extra skin.
Also, next year I'm hoping to reinstate our yearly family vacation to Laughlin, NV for 4th of July.
Wish me lots of luck!
Apidexin is a fat burner that's supposed to help you burn fat while building lean muscles. It has a very high review rate, with only a few people not having results. Keep in mind that those people rarely kept on it for more than 3 days to a week. Anyone with half a brain knows that you have to wait three days to a week just for the substance to circulate in your system and allow your body to get used to it.
On average it has about the same rate of weight loss as hCG, the only difference is you're allowed to eat food with the pills, but with hCG you at least know you're losing the right kind of fat.
Did I mention Apidexin has a money back guarantee for one open bottle and any amount of unopened bottles? If I don't like it and it doesn't work I just send it back!
So that's where I stand today, I have a lot of ideas and I'm kind of proud to finally be serious about finally getting read of this overpadded body.
I'm just glad I'm not "ROUND" FAT I'm just "thick all over" FAT.
I will try to find some thinspiration, because I feel like if I don't look at thinspiration then I fall off track a lot easier. It's easy to lose sight of your goals sometimes.
I LOVEEE GINA GERSHON!
She's so bad-ass and beautiful..
And her Showgirls co-star Elizabeth Berkley
(I love that movie)
And some randoms...
My Bestie Reina when she was skinny:
She's the one who told me her friend lost tons with hCG.
I love this girls legs, I want to be able to wear bright ass tights! lol
Hello future legs =P
5/17/11
VLCD7 - finally back on track
So I'm visiting my dad's this week, and let's just say he tends to have an abundance of food.
And then last week at home, well I pretty much ate whatever, but luckily I just stalled, I didn't gain after the initial -1.5.
Yesterday I stayed pretty close to protocol, I had a strawberry protein shake for breakfast (strawberries, water, ice, vanilla protein powder), and I'm down 2.5lbs this morning! YAY!
More proof you cannot cheat (like eating bread items) on this diet, luckily I never tend to gain, but I stall like a mofo, which is discouraging because I have to make up for the weight loss I sacrificied in this week and next. NO CHEATING ANYMORE.
I always tell myself that, and I tend to stray, but as long as I stay away from bread and sugar I shool be fine.
I'll post some thinspiration later on, my phone is acting funky right now though.
And then last week at home, well I pretty much ate whatever, but luckily I just stalled, I didn't gain after the initial -1.5.
Yesterday I stayed pretty close to protocol, I had a strawberry protein shake for breakfast (strawberries, water, ice, vanilla protein powder), and I'm down 2.5lbs this morning! YAY!
More proof you cannot cheat (like eating bread items) on this diet, luckily I never tend to gain, but I stall like a mofo, which is discouraging because I have to make up for the weight loss I sacrificied in this week and next. NO CHEATING ANYMORE.
I always tell myself that, and I tend to stray, but as long as I stay away from bread and sugar I shool be fine.
I'll post some thinspiration later on, my phone is acting funky right now though.
5/12/11
Vlcd3
I am at the same weight as yesterday, which I'm thinking is very good because I ate a lot of stuff yesterday that's not OP (on protocol), like Honey Nut Cheerios and steel cut oats. Not to mention half of an egg salad sandwich, steak, spinach, bread...
I was having some personal sweage problems and after trying everything to fix it (food wise), I had my bf get me a laxative and now everything is right as rain and I didn't gain any weight. If anything at least I'm maintaining well lol.
Today I'm back to my protein shakes and oranges. Hopefully the oranges will keep me regular, my stomach has never felt so shitty, ever.
No pun intended.
Here is some thinspiration:
(I know you people against things like this are going to have a cow, but everyone needs inspirations, especially on a diet when they're a foodie lol.)
I was having some personal sweage problems and after trying everything to fix it (food wise), I had my bf get me a laxative and now everything is right as rain and I didn't gain any weight. If anything at least I'm maintaining well lol.
Today I'm back to my protein shakes and oranges. Hopefully the oranges will keep me regular, my stomach has never felt so shitty, ever.
No pun intended.
Here is some thinspiration:
(I know you people against things like this are going to have a cow, but everyone needs inspirations, especially on a diet when they're a foodie lol.)
5/11/11
R2P2-VLCD2
-2lbs this morning. Less than I wanted but as to be expected because I ate a few too many bites of my son's hotdogs yesterday, also, I'm going to stick to 2 protein shakes because I don't think 3 works for me.
I've gotten my sleep back to "normal", which still isn't actually normal because I've been going to bed between 7-9pm and waking at 3-4am. WAY TOO EARLY! Somehow I've got to train myself to sleep-in now. The longer I'm awake the more I want to eat and even if one shake lasts me an hour or two, that's not enough to last for the whole day.
I've been dreaming about my weight-loss again, I can't believe its possible for me to get to 210 by July.
I know 210 is still an extremely high weight, but you have to remember, I haven't weighed 209-210 since 8th grade (12 years old), that's 10 years! And to think I can backtrack all that weight in a few months.
It's really a miracle.
Plus, I'll only have 96lbs more to lose. =D
My weight calculator thingy says I could poccibly be at goal by next May!
Imagine. Over 130lbs in less than a year!
Of course the biggest motivator is looking at clothes.
I just imagine all the pretty clothes and shoes I'll get to wear, WITHOUT WORRYING ABOUT WHETHER OR NOT SOMETHING'S GOING TO FIT!
I've gotten my sleep back to "normal", which still isn't actually normal because I've been going to bed between 7-9pm and waking at 3-4am. WAY TOO EARLY! Somehow I've got to train myself to sleep-in now. The longer I'm awake the more I want to eat and even if one shake lasts me an hour or two, that's not enough to last for the whole day.
I've been dreaming about my weight-loss again, I can't believe its possible for me to get to 210 by July.
I know 210 is still an extremely high weight, but you have to remember, I haven't weighed 209-210 since 8th grade (12 years old), that's 10 years! And to think I can backtrack all that weight in a few months.
It's really a miracle.
Plus, I'll only have 96lbs more to lose. =D
My weight calculator thingy says I could poccibly be at goal by next May!
Imagine. Over 130lbs in less than a year!
Of course the biggest motivator is looking at clothes.
I just imagine all the pretty clothes and shoes I'll get to wear, WITHOUT WORRYING ABOUT WHETHER OR NOT SOMETHING'S GOING TO FIT!
5/9/11
R3D1 LOAD
250 today, which is ok because its within the 2lbs allowed to maintain.
Loading today and back on hCG, starting VLC tomorrow, using protein shakes and fruit in place of meat meals.
I actually love my protein shakes, I feel like I get more variety aswell, because I can add pretty much anything (fruits, & flavors [like cocoa powder]). I have Body Fortress 100% Whey, in vanilla flavor, for one scoop it's 26g of protein. And it's yummy, sweet enough on its own but I add Truvia when I have slightly sour strawberries, or when I make a chocolate shake with my cocoa powder.
I think I might switch out my daily piece of bacon for a tabelspoon of coconut oil, for my fat intake (because the fat seems to soothe my stomach if I feel sick from my vitamins). And it sometimes helps losses.
So I've been thinking about weight loss, and how I seem to be getting addicted to it.
I'm also thinking how easy it seems to be to switch between eating disorders (EDs), like I'm sure at some point (probably still) I have an OED (over-eating disorder).
I'm finding it amazing how I can be going from over-eating to practically eating nothing (compared to most people), without noticing/feeling a difference besides the fact that if I eat too much I get sick.
And I LOVEEEE seeing the numbers on the scale just DROP.
I love knowing that its completely possible that I will be 140lbs lighter in just about a year. (Less if I lose at the rate I'm hoping for - .5-1lb/day)
140 pounds! That's an entire person! (who's probably overweight)
Its the best motivation besides looking at pictures of skinny people and being like, "I am so going to be that skinny". Or at some of them I'm even like wow she's fat, I'm going to be skinnier than her. AND KNOW ITS POSSIBLE. Plus, I'm very excited that unlike so many people, I'm not going to be starving myself to get there.
So I went from fat chick to weight loss addict, and I'm almost afraid I'm never going to be skinny enough to be happy. I feel like I'm always only going to see myself at this weight, or rather, the weight I was before the 23lbs I lost. Hell, I still remember when I was 17 and like 290lbs! I know I will never actually look my real weight, I'll always technically look smaller because I'm built well, but I still just see the numbers.
Part of my obsession for losing weight has to be because of going clothes shopping.
There's nothing in the world (for me) that's worse than going to a store and trying on EVERYTHING that looks even close to decent, only to find out nothing in the store will even go on (pants-wise), or that my leg's going to get stuck right after I get my calf through the thigh part of the pant leg, even though the waist would fit fine.
There's nothing more depressing than having to cry in a dressing room because you can't fit into anything and you never will.
Hell, heartbreak is easier to go through. At least heartbreak is normal.
Anyways those are my thoughts for today.
I feel like no-one thinks to remember that being fat is a disease and over-eating is a disorder.
Eating disorders aren't just for skinny people, and they don't all mean you're starving yourself to death. You can also eat yourself to death.
Luckily for me, food wasn't my only addiction and fat wasn't my only problem.
And disorders and addictions just rotate to fit your brains way of thinking; when you're fat you want to be skinny, but think you never will be so you eat more out of depression and hopelessness; when you're skinny you think you should be skinnier so you eat less and less or nothing at all.
There was always something underlying that made you that way in the first place. Abuse, depression, addiction, and striving for perfection due to those factors, because all make you feel hopeless, unwanted, and ugly.
We're all in it together and we should all support each other.
Will update tomorrow on how my load day went, and I will be very happy to get back to 500cals/day!
I feel like I've been stuffing myself all week to maintain my weight at 249.
I am starting to hate food. Everything I eat feels too dense and like it just sits around in my stomach like a blob. Like I ate too much, even though my meals are now to like 300-400 cals, which is normal for a 1200cal/day diet.
Loading today and back on hCG, starting VLC tomorrow, using protein shakes and fruit in place of meat meals.
I actually love my protein shakes, I feel like I get more variety aswell, because I can add pretty much anything (fruits, & flavors [like cocoa powder]). I have Body Fortress 100% Whey, in vanilla flavor, for one scoop it's 26g of protein. And it's yummy, sweet enough on its own but I add Truvia when I have slightly sour strawberries, or when I make a chocolate shake with my cocoa powder.
I think I might switch out my daily piece of bacon for a tabelspoon of coconut oil, for my fat intake (because the fat seems to soothe my stomach if I feel sick from my vitamins). And it sometimes helps losses.
So I've been thinking about weight loss, and how I seem to be getting addicted to it.
I'm also thinking how easy it seems to be to switch between eating disorders (EDs), like I'm sure at some point (probably still) I have an OED (over-eating disorder).
I'm finding it amazing how I can be going from over-eating to practically eating nothing (compared to most people), without noticing/feeling a difference besides the fact that if I eat too much I get sick.
And I LOVEEEE seeing the numbers on the scale just DROP.
I love knowing that its completely possible that I will be 140lbs lighter in just about a year. (Less if I lose at the rate I'm hoping for - .5-1lb/day)
140 pounds! That's an entire person! (who's probably overweight)
Its the best motivation besides looking at pictures of skinny people and being like, "I am so going to be that skinny". Or at some of them I'm even like wow she's fat, I'm going to be skinnier than her. AND KNOW ITS POSSIBLE. Plus, I'm very excited that unlike so many people, I'm not going to be starving myself to get there.
So I went from fat chick to weight loss addict, and I'm almost afraid I'm never going to be skinny enough to be happy. I feel like I'm always only going to see myself at this weight, or rather, the weight I was before the 23lbs I lost. Hell, I still remember when I was 17 and like 290lbs! I know I will never actually look my real weight, I'll always technically look smaller because I'm built well, but I still just see the numbers.
Part of my obsession for losing weight has to be because of going clothes shopping.
There's nothing in the world (for me) that's worse than going to a store and trying on EVERYTHING that looks even close to decent, only to find out nothing in the store will even go on (pants-wise), or that my leg's going to get stuck right after I get my calf through the thigh part of the pant leg, even though the waist would fit fine.
There's nothing more depressing than having to cry in a dressing room because you can't fit into anything and you never will.
Hell, heartbreak is easier to go through. At least heartbreak is normal.
Anyways those are my thoughts for today.
I feel like no-one thinks to remember that being fat is a disease and over-eating is a disorder.
Eating disorders aren't just for skinny people, and they don't all mean you're starving yourself to death. You can also eat yourself to death.
Luckily for me, food wasn't my only addiction and fat wasn't my only problem.
And disorders and addictions just rotate to fit your brains way of thinking; when you're fat you want to be skinny, but think you never will be so you eat more out of depression and hopelessness; when you're skinny you think you should be skinnier so you eat less and less or nothing at all.
There was always something underlying that made you that way in the first place. Abuse, depression, addiction, and striving for perfection due to those factors, because all make you feel hopeless, unwanted, and ugly.
We're all in it together and we should all support each other.
Will update tomorrow on how my load day went, and I will be very happy to get back to 500cals/day!
I feel like I've been stuffing myself all week to maintain my weight at 249.
I am starting to hate food. Everything I eat feels too dense and like it just sits around in my stomach like a blob. Like I ate too much, even though my meals are now to like 300-400 cals, which is normal for a 1200cal/day diet.
5/8/11
P3D5
I don't know about my weight today since I didn't go to sleep last night and only took a nap or two today.
If I had to go by my weight after a nap, then I gained 2lbs. But since I haven't slept, that isn't accurate.
I mixed my hCG tonight so I'm going to cycle back to P2 already, and load tomorrow.
Then on Tuesday will be my first day of VLC with only protein shakes and fruit, with vitamins and supplements.
Going by the results of one woman who lost 20.4lbs on W1 of P2 by only drinking protein shakes 3x/day, I figure my loses will be a little slower than that (due to fruit and my daily slice of bacon), but will be quite similar, so I should be able to get to goal (225) by the end of this P2 (R3P2), but because that's a small amount over 1lb/day, I won't be bummed if I don't make it. Any losses are good ones. =)
I'm just glad I found a way to lose weight in the first place.
As long as I keep going down I'm happy with that.
As for hCG, I'm planning on buying 5 vials at the end of this week for $70, and 5 vials later when I can get the money, so I never have to stop. And if this round seems to be going well I might just make it a long round. It would be !AWESOME¡ if I could lose 40lbs in 40 days, that would be 209 before the end of June, which would be almost halfway to my absolute goal.
As you can see, I'm excited, and who wouldn't be?
I've already lost as much as my son weighs, and he isn't fun to carry around. The weight of a car tire. WOW.
On my P3s I am going to do some exercising, using my Wave, and my Wii game "Shape Up W/ Jenny McCarthy". It's actually a really annoying game but it's fun in its own way. The Wave is a BLAST and it worked every muscle in your body, super fun and makes you sore in the morning.
Has anyone noticed my new "Summer-y" blog layout?
Well, I think it's fun,
I hope the font color is readable, it's the best I could choose from.
If I had to go by my weight after a nap, then I gained 2lbs. But since I haven't slept, that isn't accurate.
I mixed my hCG tonight so I'm going to cycle back to P2 already, and load tomorrow.
Then on Tuesday will be my first day of VLC with only protein shakes and fruit, with vitamins and supplements.
Going by the results of one woman who lost 20.4lbs on W1 of P2 by only drinking protein shakes 3x/day, I figure my loses will be a little slower than that (due to fruit and my daily slice of bacon), but will be quite similar, so I should be able to get to goal (225) by the end of this P2 (R3P2), but because that's a small amount over 1lb/day, I won't be bummed if I don't make it. Any losses are good ones. =)
I'm just glad I found a way to lose weight in the first place.
As long as I keep going down I'm happy with that.
As for hCG, I'm planning on buying 5 vials at the end of this week for $70, and 5 vials later when I can get the money, so I never have to stop. And if this round seems to be going well I might just make it a long round. It would be !AWESOME¡ if I could lose 40lbs in 40 days, that would be 209 before the end of June, which would be almost halfway to my absolute goal.
As you can see, I'm excited, and who wouldn't be?
I've already lost as much as my son weighs, and he isn't fun to carry around. The weight of a car tire. WOW.
On my P3s I am going to do some exercising, using my Wave, and my Wii game "Shape Up W/ Jenny McCarthy". It's actually a really annoying game but it's fun in its own way. The Wave is a BLAST and it worked every muscle in your body, super fun and makes you sore in the morning.
Has anyone noticed my new "Summer-y" blog layout?
Well, I think it's fun,
I hope the font color is readable, it's the best I could choose from.
5/7/11
P3D4
.5 gain, no biggie because its beneath 2lbs seeing as how I'm supposed to be maintaining.
Today I've had around 1220 calories.
I had beef fajitas, (a small piece of pizza), protein shake w/cocoa and strawberries, and part of a salad with a piece of bacon.
I've also been exercising (shape up on the wii and my wave/videos) these past couple of days. My legs hurt buy I love to exercise its fun. And I have one more week of P3 to exercise more until P2 again.
Will finish writing later.
I'm being forced to go to my boyfriend's friend's house in north scottsdale.
Ok - 3 hours later -
So I ate a chocolate chip cookie, but that's all, which is good because they had pizza and chips everywhere. No question why that girl is overweight, everything at her house is either prcoess or sugar. At least she has a boyfriend now, that kind of wanes my thoughts of her being a stripper/hooker, now she's just a stripper. (I don't mean that badly, it's her job, even if she graduated from college and is still doing it...)
Actually I've been talking to my boyfriend, I might take some of those *lap dance exercise classes* and be a stripper when I get skinny. His friend (the aforementioned stripper) makes up to $3k/night! Hell yes! I could send my son to that Chinese speaking daycare we wanted and when he's old enough - PRIVATE SCHOOL! And I can go to any college I can get into (within means).
Its an exciting thought, especially when you weren't. Brainwashed into thinking all strippers are dirty trash whores. There are a LOT of NICE NICE clubs out there. (With RICH RICH guys) and most don't allow complete nudity anymore.
So now I'm hunkering down on the couch, watching Numb3rs (I'm almost done with all the seasons/episodes on Netflix). David Krumholtz is so cute, I've had a crush on him since the first Santa Clause came out, but he definitely looks cuter when he has longer hair. I have a thing for "Jew Hair" on guys lol.
I must be good on drinking my water since I've been running to the bathroom all night.
I'll exercise when I start to feel tired so I stay awake today. I'm tired of sleeping in the day time.
Today I've had around 1220 calories.
I had beef fajitas, (a small piece of pizza), protein shake w/cocoa and strawberries, and part of a salad with a piece of bacon.
I've also been exercising (shape up on the wii and my wave/videos) these past couple of days. My legs hurt buy I love to exercise its fun. And I have one more week of P3 to exercise more until P2 again.
Will finish writing later.
I'm being forced to go to my boyfriend's friend's house in north scottsdale.
Ok - 3 hours later -
So I ate a chocolate chip cookie, but that's all, which is good because they had pizza and chips everywhere. No question why that girl is overweight, everything at her house is either prcoess or sugar. At least she has a boyfriend now, that kind of wanes my thoughts of her being a stripper/hooker, now she's just a stripper. (I don't mean that badly, it's her job, even if she graduated from college and is still doing it...)
Actually I've been talking to my boyfriend, I might take some of those *lap dance exercise classes* and be a stripper when I get skinny. His friend (the aforementioned stripper) makes up to $3k/night! Hell yes! I could send my son to that Chinese speaking daycare we wanted and when he's old enough - PRIVATE SCHOOL! And I can go to any college I can get into (within means).
Its an exciting thought, especially when you weren't. Brainwashed into thinking all strippers are dirty trash whores. There are a LOT of NICE NICE clubs out there. (With RICH RICH guys) and most don't allow complete nudity anymore.
So now I'm hunkering down on the couch, watching Numb3rs (I'm almost done with all the seasons/episodes on Netflix). David Krumholtz is so cute, I've had a crush on him since the first Santa Clause came out, but he definitely looks cuter when he has longer hair. I have a thing for "Jew Hair" on guys lol.
I must be good on drinking my water since I've been running to the bathroom all night.
I'll exercise when I start to feel tired so I stay awake today. I'm tired of sleeping in the day time.
5/6/11
P3D2
Here's a picture I took on Monday to show my 13.5lb loss.
It doesn't look like I lost at all. Ok maybe a little. But I expected more of a difference.
I gained 2lbs from my pizza binge last night.
So I did a steak day today for a total of 469cals.
A steak day is comprised of fasting all day (water only) until dinner, where you have a large steak (6oz for me), and a large apple or tomato (I only had tomatoes so that's what I had).
I also went and made a bunch of meal plans to keep myself on track and restricting calories between 600-900/day.
I am not going to fuck up again. I want to be skinny. Why do I keep sabotaging myself?
At this rate (losing 2.3-3lbs/week) I should be to my goal by May 2012. I don't want it to take longer than that! That's already an entire year!
I know, compared to being fat my entire life it's nothing, but I'm tired of being fat and I'm only getting older. I want to get skinny while I still look good.
And it would be nice to be down another 20lbs by July so I can fit into my "skinny pants", lol yeah, size 18 in American eagle is skinny to me. See why I want to turn into a stick figure instantly?
No instead I have one more year of looking in the mirror at a fat ass.
Luckily I just noticed my face is starting to look normal (skinny) again. Its really nice to start looking like myself (pre-baby weight) and not some blob person.
Well tomorrow will tell how that steak day treated me, and tomorrow I'm also back to protein shakes, fruit, and weighing what meat I do I eat.
It doesn't look like I lost at all. Ok maybe a little. But I expected more of a difference.
I gained 2lbs from my pizza binge last night.
So I did a steak day today for a total of 469cals.
A steak day is comprised of fasting all day (water only) until dinner, where you have a large steak (6oz for me), and a large apple or tomato (I only had tomatoes so that's what I had).
I also went and made a bunch of meal plans to keep myself on track and restricting calories between 600-900/day.
I am not going to fuck up again. I want to be skinny. Why do I keep sabotaging myself?
At this rate (losing 2.3-3lbs/week) I should be to my goal by May 2012. I don't want it to take longer than that! That's already an entire year!
I know, compared to being fat my entire life it's nothing, but I'm tired of being fat and I'm only getting older. I want to get skinny while I still look good.
And it would be nice to be down another 20lbs by July so I can fit into my "skinny pants", lol yeah, size 18 in American eagle is skinny to me. See why I want to turn into a stick figure instantly?
No instead I have one more year of looking in the mirror at a fat ass.
Luckily I just noticed my face is starting to look normal (skinny) again. Its really nice to start looking like myself (pre-baby weight) and not some blob person.
Well tomorrow will tell how that steak day treated me, and tomorrow I'm also back to protein shakes, fruit, and weighing what meat I do I eat.
5/4/11
P3 D1
Right, well, I feel like a mega fatass. I totally binged on pizza.
I ate 2 little chicken things (574cal total), 2 pieces of bacon (50cal total), half a tuna sand (100cal), and half of a cheese pizza (1180cal, yeah yeah not p3 I know bite me you goodie goodie).
I probably won't gain anything tomorrow, but from now on I'm just going to up my protein shakes and add fruits and veggies.
My stomach is hurting sooooo bad right now. I feel like puking.
I'm never eating that much ever again!
I was at same weight today as yesterday so that's good, now I just have to keep it there.
I can't wait to start P2 again on the 16th.
I ate 2 little chicken things (574cal total), 2 pieces of bacon (50cal total), half a tuna sand (100cal), and half of a cheese pizza (1180cal, yeah yeah not p3 I know bite me you goodie goodie).
I probably won't gain anything tomorrow, but from now on I'm just going to up my protein shakes and add fruits and veggies.
My stomach is hurting sooooo bad right now. I feel like puking.
I'm never eating that much ever again!
I was at same weight today as yesterday so that's good, now I just have to keep it there.
I can't wait to start P2 again on the 16th.
5/2/11
VLCD20; DAY 1 NO HCG
I'm down 2lbs today!
I had 2 pieces of bacon (100cal), an orange (47), strawberries (13), and 1/2 each of three protein shakes (210), for a grand total of 370cals.
Thanks to HCG I was actually getting more like 2370.
I've decided to cycle since the last time I wrote.
Cycling means you switch back and forth between P2 and P3 without P4 until you're done losing weight.
Its to help keep your head in the game and be able to handle the limit of food choice for however long you do the diet. (You can do say 2-3 weeks of hcg w/diet and then take a break from both [p3] for 4 days-3 weeks)
Which makes it easier to stick to the diet and overall, to finish with the weightloss.
Today I felt sick when I took my vitamins and supplements so I ate an orange (47), it got worse, so I ate a piece of bologna (110) and I'm feeling great, the fat content helps.
So, so far today I'm at 157cals.
My friend Cat and I are cycling together (though she has a lot less to lose) and its really helping to have such a great buddy to compete/compare/and confide in/with.
I'm super excited about the diet now (like I was the first time I did it) and I've started a journal/notebook with notes and stuff (a lot of it I shouldn't talk about since its pretty pro-skinny/ana), I have inspirational quotes and tips on staying full so I don't cheat anymore, I want to lose as much as possible and that means....dun dun dun....NO MORE CHEATING APRIL!
The pro-skinny stuff really helps because basically it's the same sort of diet, but I have a bigger advantage thanks to the HCG, so instead of the amount of calories I'm eating, my body is using 2000 from my body fat.
But all the tips on avoiding food that's not allowed is very helpful and will be even more awesome when I start P2 again in a week or two.
On Wednesday I get to eat again. Well at least everything except sugar and starch, you know, carbs, which I don't usually eat anyways.
I'm glad I found this diet because my normal eating is around 1200-1500 calories/day and according to experts and everything that should be enough to lose weight. That's barely my maintainance amount of calories apparently.
My metabolism must be really effed up.
Thankfully this diet should reset it all so I can eat normally and lose weight like a normal human.
Ok I've definitely blabbed on long enough for today so I'll try to remember to write sooner than later.
=) have a great day and get skinny!
I had 2 pieces of bacon (100cal), an orange (47), strawberries (13), and 1/2 each of three protein shakes (210), for a grand total of 370cals.
Thanks to HCG I was actually getting more like 2370.
I've decided to cycle since the last time I wrote.
Cycling means you switch back and forth between P2 and P3 without P4 until you're done losing weight.
Its to help keep your head in the game and be able to handle the limit of food choice for however long you do the diet. (You can do say 2-3 weeks of hcg w/diet and then take a break from both [p3] for 4 days-3 weeks)
Which makes it easier to stick to the diet and overall, to finish with the weightloss.
Today I felt sick when I took my vitamins and supplements so I ate an orange (47), it got worse, so I ate a piece of bologna (110) and I'm feeling great, the fat content helps.
So, so far today I'm at 157cals.
My friend Cat and I are cycling together (though she has a lot less to lose) and its really helping to have such a great buddy to compete/compare/and confide in/with.
I'm super excited about the diet now (like I was the first time I did it) and I've started a journal/notebook with notes and stuff (a lot of it I shouldn't talk about since its pretty pro-skinny/ana), I have inspirational quotes and tips on staying full so I don't cheat anymore, I want to lose as much as possible and that means....dun dun dun....NO MORE CHEATING APRIL!
The pro-skinny stuff really helps because basically it's the same sort of diet, but I have a bigger advantage thanks to the HCG, so instead of the amount of calories I'm eating, my body is using 2000 from my body fat.
But all the tips on avoiding food that's not allowed is very helpful and will be even more awesome when I start P2 again in a week or two.
On Wednesday I get to eat again. Well at least everything except sugar and starch, you know, carbs, which I don't usually eat anyways.
I'm glad I found this diet because my normal eating is around 1200-1500 calories/day and according to experts and everything that should be enough to lose weight. That's barely my maintainance amount of calories apparently.
My metabolism must be really effed up.
Thankfully this diet should reset it all so I can eat normally and lose weight like a normal human.
Ok I've definitely blabbed on long enough for today so I'll try to remember to write sooner than later.
=) have a great day and get skinny!
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