Christmas Round VLCD 4

Mixing a new vial tonight since the one I've been using is finally empty (I mixed it a few weeks ago and ended up deciding I wasn't ready for P2 so I froze it.... twice... ).
Anyways, I'm thinking the vial I've been using is dead from being frozen and thawed excessively, and hoping that I'll stop having this craving/hunger thing and start losing better, meaning I want WEIGHT not INCHES.
For the Halloween round it went hella slow like this one is doing, but I lost almost 8" one week and ten pounds the next week, which was awesome yeah, I fit back into my pre-preg pants I haven't warn in 3 years, I'm wearing L-XL dresses and leggings, and ALMOST fit into a size 17 in juniors' jeans. But I really want to get out of the 200s!!!

My weight as of today is 237, and I did have bites of carbs here and there today, but I'm hoping not enough to make me gain. I am down from my load weight of 242.5 so that good at least and it's only my 3rd loss day.
My LIW from my P3 was 235 and also what I stabilized at (was basically a P4).
Would like to have done better in my last round and better in that first P3 I did after the Halloween round, but I did gain about 10# (238), then lost 3 and stabilized in this last half at 235.
I'm really trying to push for working this round. Hubby is giving me great support and yelling at me when I even think about cheating, so that's good, my past rounds have been a laugh because he wasn't supportive at all and I cheated alot.

Also, I've been eating mainly beef, which could be the reason my losses are sucking so badly. I need to pick up some chicken and ground turkey, last round when I made turkey goulash I dropped 4# instantly and I was basically nursing on that all day, probably about .5lb of ground turkey meat with chilis, bell peppers, onions, tomatoes/sauce, even a few noodles here and there. And it wasn't a fluke because the next couple of days I lost 3# each (that was the 10# I lost in the Halloween round). And mixing veggies doesn't work for me, normally it makes me gain.

So there's my update. Also, I've been checking out some more thinspiration because that seems to keep me in check, I'm thinking the dieting will be easier in a couple of weeks when my classes are finished for the winter, Chinese is done next week  (Dec 8) and my other classes are done the week after. (Dec 12-16)

Off the wagon and in the gains lol

Not big gains mind you - I hover around 233 most of the time, but I can't seem to stop myself from cheating. Caused by letting myself really cheat a few times and getting re-addicted to food. ... mainly Carbs. CARBSSSS those devilish things. >.>

So yes I'm still on the juice and not eating a lot to cause real gains (minus last night because I ate a lot of Chinese pastries, giving me a 1.5 gain that might be gone tomorrow, depending if I keep eating crap today..)
I can't decide whether to just be in P3 or to keep trying to get myself back into P2 mode (NO CHEATINNNGGGG)
these past couple of seeks have been MEGGA hard because we've been MEGGGAAAA BROKE. So I've had to buy crap and eat crap because CRAP is all we've been able to afford. And seems to be all we're going to be able to afford or a while. I think I should buy a shit-ton of full fat Fage and live off of that because it loves me and really keeps you full. Downside - EXPENSIVE AS FUCKKKK!

Also need to get back into looking at lots of thinspo, I seem to notice when I'm not actively looking at inspiration I fall off into my fat-people ways and eat shit. =/ Doesn't help either that hubby has been bringing home crap or wanting me to cook crap food. I think I should just go back to beef and broccoli every night hahaha, but then he'd want rice or noodles.... Again with the carbohydrates!!!
Halloween didn't help either because of trick-or-treating and sugar sugar sugar candy candy candy. BUT, I did NOT make yummies this year (cookies, Rice Krispy Treats, etc). So I'm kind of proud of that. =] But I DID raid my son's candy bag for "the good stuff". (Hershey's and Reeses) which I'm not proud of.


Also have not been paying enough attention to my studies at all. Which I'm actually supposed to be doing as I type right now because I haven't read my chapters and I have an exam TODAY that I have to finish before leaving for my dads in 6 hours. Crap.


So there's my update.