Off the wagon and in the gains lol

Not big gains mind you - I hover around 233 most of the time, but I can't seem to stop myself from cheating. Caused by letting myself really cheat a few times and getting re-addicted to food. ... mainly Carbs. CARBSSSS those devilish things. >.>

So yes I'm still on the juice and not eating a lot to cause real gains (minus last night because I ate a lot of Chinese pastries, giving me a 1.5 gain that might be gone tomorrow, depending if I keep eating crap today..)
I can't decide whether to just be in P3 or to keep trying to get myself back into P2 mode (NO CHEATINNNGGGG)
these past couple of seeks have been MEGGA hard because we've been MEGGGAAAA BROKE. So I've had to buy crap and eat crap because CRAP is all we've been able to afford. And seems to be all we're going to be able to afford or a while. I think I should buy a shit-ton of full fat Fage and live off of that because it loves me and really keeps you full. Downside - EXPENSIVE AS FUCKKKK!

Also need to get back into looking at lots of thinspo, I seem to notice when I'm not actively looking at inspiration I fall off into my fat-people ways and eat shit. =/ Doesn't help either that hubby has been bringing home crap or wanting me to cook crap food. I think I should just go back to beef and broccoli every night hahaha, but then he'd want rice or noodles.... Again with the carbohydrates!!!
Halloween didn't help either because of trick-or-treating and sugar sugar sugar candy candy candy. BUT, I did NOT make yummies this year (cookies, Rice Krispy Treats, etc). So I'm kind of proud of that. =] But I DID raid my son's candy bag for "the good stuff". (Hershey's and Reeses) which I'm not proud of.


Also have not been paying enough attention to my studies at all. Which I'm actually supposed to be doing as I type right now because I haven't read my chapters and I have an exam TODAY that I have to finish before leaving for my dads in 6 hours. Crap.


So there's my update.